Oh Swetie, my heart is breaking for you right now. Please don't feel like you will be "evicted" or anything like that from here. We are your friends and will help you as long as it takes as much as we can!
As for picking a dr, this is what I do. Pick the three best sounding names to you. Call their offices and talk to the girl at the desk. Explain to her that you have a list of drs and are trying to find the best one for you. If you like the girl at the front desk, ask that she have to dr call you back for a quick 5 minute introduction to see if you think you will like that person!! I've done this many times and 9 times out of 10, it works well!!
I've been seeing a "shrink" for almost 2 years and it really had helped me, a lot! I'm hoping the change in medication will help you also.
As far as the pain signals becoming more ingrained, have you tried the hypno cd's to counter act that? You can borrow mine if you can't afford them yourself! Please let me know if you are interested! Lots of love and big hugs!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....