Beth, I know you don't know me well, but I just wanted to send you a note to tell you that I understand what you're feeling and that I'm so very sorry. I know those feelings of frustration and desperation. Other people have suggested seeing a doctor about anti-depressant medication, and I would agree. It took me a long time to muster the courage to talk to my doctor about it or even accept that I needed them, but once I did make the decision, it made all the difference in the world. I've been on them for about six months now, and I've noticed big changes in not only my IBS symptoms but also my overall mood. They do help. Seek a doctor that you trust and who will listen.