I am so sorry you are hurting so deeply emotionally. I've been very worried about you.
I am praying that you find the comfort and help you deserve. If you feel it is best to go to the hospital, that is probably the safest place for you to be. I remember how emotionally safe I felt when I was hospitalized for my anorexia...I felt that I would finally not be alone and that it was all being taken away from me as others "took over" and made decisions for my health when I was unable to take care of my own body and mind.
Not only are the hospital staff able to get your meds adjusted, but just the fact that you won't have to be worrying about the everyday life stresses on top of all this medical stuff is helpful as well. You won't have to deal with shopping, cooking, bill paying, cleaning, etc...for a short time you can just focus on Alicia and getting yourself back on track!
Please let us know what you decide to do, if you can. I have you in my thoughts, sweetie.
Hugs, kisses, and love to you.
-------------------- ~ Beth
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