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I feel so angry, and I can't vent to anyone else so I feel I need to let it out here or I will just go crazy and explode!!
This week I got really sick - After my bad attack on Thursday, I went to work on Friday and got sent home. My boss said I looked terrible, I threw up in the bathroom, I was so nauseous and headachy and dizzy.
I tried to go out that night for our anniversary/my brother in-law's birthday and I had to get our food to go and leave because I was sweating and shaking and felt so awful - I even had to get my parents to come down and drive my car home 'cause I couldn't drive and Adrian had been drinking.

And do I get ANY sympathy? Any even ACKNOWLEDGMENT that I'm sick? NO!
I guess I am used to not getting any sympathy or much support regarding my IBS, but this is ridiculous!!
Everyone just acts like it's normal that I feel so crappy! My mom is still asking me to get up and close the door, to get her glasses of water, to go for walks (we went to visit my grandparents even though I felt on the verge of passing out all day). Adrian is still nagging at me for things being untidy, poking at me, pulling my hair to be funny... I was like, "I TOLD YOU I HAVE A HEADACHE AND AM DIZZY, DON'T PULL MY <CENSORED>ING HAIR!!" and he looked all shocked but SERIOUSlY!!!!!!!

I feel so angry and so alone. What if I was really, really sick?? Would everyone in my life just ignore me and ask me to run errands for them 'cause they are too bloody lazy to do something themselves and too bloody self-absorbed to see that I am hurting, and sick and to maybe ask if _I_ want a glass of water???

Bah, I am just so mad. I know there isn't really a lot I can do, I have tried to talk to them all before about it but they don't understand, think I am feeling sorry for myself, think I am obsessing about being sick... I think it's ridiculous, but whatever.

Sorry to take it all out on you guys, but I know at least you will understand and not just basically act like I am a drama queen.
**hugs**
--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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