As Casey said, it is hard to leave a relationship of 10 years, even if it wasn't the best, because it was comfortable. And you did love him at one time, maybe you always will.
But think about how you would feel if you gave up this opportunity and hung around. Which scares me more? Probably the thought of living in those conditions for another 10 or more years.
You are nervous, and anyone in your shoes would be. But deep down, you know it's the best thing. And this is the roughest time. The time right before the move when everything becomes "real". But hey, even though you are moving, we are'nt!! We'll still be old and familar and comfortable.
Once you get some familiar things in your new place, and get Sara in there with you, you will feel better and at peace. Maybe not the first night, but I bet by the end of the week, things will be much brighter and you'll be wondering what all your crying was about!!
Crying is so healing and therapeutic. You are mourning the loss of a relationship. But you have a new one right around the corner. You are one of the strongest people I know, Tina. So determined to make your life happpy and the most fullfilling that you can, even when it means doing frightening things and making changes.
YOU ARE AWESOME!!! Take care and check in this weekend if you can. Otherwise, we expect a full report on Monday!
Lots of love and hugs!
-------------------- ~ Beth
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