Reged: 11/14/04
Posts: 1530
Loc: Canberra, Australia
Okay. So I tend to keep my private life pretty private but right now I'm just too hurt to care. Last night DH actually got off his computer and came to bed to talk with me. After my depressing doctors visit I talked to him a bit about how I was feeling and how upset I was and how awful life is atm. Anyway after about 5 minutes he rolls over and ignores me. I asked him why he wasn't listening and he really blew up at me and said he's sick of IBS, he doesn't care anymore and that I should eat properly (try some cheese, steak etc, mind you I have a pretty healthy diet that doesn't include deliberately making myself a whole lot worse) and get over it. That I'm selfish cause all I ever want to talk about is myself and my IBS and he doesn't care at all about whether or not I have D or pain as long as he doesn't have to hear about it any more! He then also told me it was my fault I have it cause I don't eat regular food and that it's my fault I'm stressed cause I wanted to have kids in the first place (yeah, I'm an amoeba who made them all by myself). I was completely and absolutely devastated. I can honestly say that I have never felt more unloved or unwanted in my entire life. Then when he got tired he rolled over wanting to cuddle and tried to tell me that he said it wrong but when I asked him how he meant to say it he just mumbled "I don't know, don't get the s##t's or anything". I know it's hard for him to listen to and for him to understand but am I really asking too much for a cuddle when I feel at my worst? Sorry to go on. I just can't believe it.
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