Reged: 07/10/04
Posts: 1176
Loc: Manhattan, New York
Wow. I am so sad that happened to you. Though I can honestly understand why you reacted that way. Its so hard isn't it. I hope you don't blame yourself about it. It was only natural. One of my husbands friends mother is now dying in hospital. she is in her late fifties and has smoked two packs of cigarettes since the beginning of time. She was diagnosed a few months ago with emphysema but still refused to stop smoking. she caught a simple cold this week and is now unconsious in hospital with days to live...her whole body shut down through lack of immunity to anything. her son is getting married in the summer. I cannot understand it. I know addictions are hard...but...I said to my dad once - 'so having that cookie is a higher priority than soothing your daughters mind about your attempts to gain better health?' and to spite me, he said yes...because I know he MUST love me more then cookies...but our actions DO speak louder then our words in life...Thanks so much XXXX
-------------------- Feel the fear and do it anyway!