Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Just need a little pity party today

Okay, I am just feeling a little pent up and just need a very small pity party!
Adrian is having a much harder time adjusting to the move than I thought (and WAY more than he thought!) he would, and sometimes being the ultra supportive one is super hard.
I don't get any sympathy any more, which is okay most of the time, but lately I feel like I went from having super supportive boyfriend, to no support at all. I've had all these exams, and issues with old friends, and my tummy hasn't been great and I just feel kinda.. exhausted.
He is so stressed, and he is dealing with it by cleaning... Cleaning everything, all the time. And any time I leave anything around, he has a fit. He gets mad at me when I make a tiny mess (leaving a box of q-tips on the coffee table), and gets really grumpy and then says he isn't.. so I spend a lot of time trying to guess why he is mad at me. Then it finally comes out, and I know this sounds super insensitive and stuff, but sometimes it makes me think "THAT'S IT?!?!". I can't help it, I don't understand the big deal with everything being perfect, and I have been trying to get it... and I am trying so hard to be as tidy as I can but I am a university student with books and papers and notes and STUFF and it's so hard to be perfect!
*big sigh*
My tummy has been getting worse and worse the more tense I feel and today it just went over the edge. I told him I was feeling bad, and I stayed in bed for a long time... Okay, I probably stayed in bed TOO long and I should have gotten up. Then I came out into the living room, and everywhere I went I was in his way because he is tidying or rearranging or fixing something, then he is acting all stroppy with me!
So I kept asking why he was mad, but the thought of going through it really just made me feel SO TIRED and I just started crying. He told me he wasn't mad, and gave me hugs and stuff and then it seemed okay, but I just feel so stressed.
Everything is okay.. I am okay, he is okay, we are okay.. I just feel like I need to vent, and I don't really have anybody right now. My mom already is trying to convince me he'll break up with me, my best friend is so jealous of the time I spend with him that she takes any excuse to criticise me or our relationship... I just need to get it out, and then let it go!
WHEW. Okay, there we go... Thanks all for listening, now I can go back to being the supportive girlfriend and not rip my own head off.. or his!!

--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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