No honey, you are not a looser, in fact I think I am one of those types of peole too, emetophobic. OMGOsh I had no idea there was a name for that too.
Its ok, don't be so hard on yourself, things could be much worse. I am dealing with a 9 year old who cried himself to sleep because he is missing his mom, long long story. I wish I could have made his pain go away, but, I let him cry it out until he went to sleep. I told him we would call mom first thing in the morning, he was satisfied with that. But, what do you do???? I don't know how to comfort the child, I dont want to make it worse.....anyway, this post is aboutyou, not me, me me me me em......sorry.