I'm always telling my sons that they have nothing to lose by applying to a college, a position on a sports team, or for a scholarship, etc. Then I realized last week that I didn't practice what I preach. That I am just as scared as they are to go out on a limb.
My son is too scared to return this college golf coach's call---and I have been telling him every day that he has nothing to lose. So what if they reject you? At least you will have tried, I told him. Then I felt ashamed, because I realized I was just as terrified to approach the editor of the local paper about a job.
As I told you last week, I did email the editor some of my stories. Then I realized later that it would be much easier for him to see the hard copies, so I put together a book with my resume and my best stories---and mailed it to him yesterday.
I was so terrified (which is unlike me!) that I was shaking while standing in line at the post office. I told my husband that I might as well have been sending him photos of me in my underwear! That's how I felt---like I was baring my soul to him! What if he thought my stories were terrible?
I don't know what I'm scared of ---that he won't like my writing----or that he will. But at least, I DID IT!
I emailed him to tell him the package was on its way, and I got a response from him, THANKING me for sending it to him.
Gosh, he was NICE. That wasn't bad.
What am I afraid of? Failure, rejection----- success??? I don't know. Why do we do this to ourselves?
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