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Hi all!
I hope everyone is doing well - I have been reading and _trying_ to respond to posts but I am having to use my parents computer so it's not very easy to get time by myself.
So everything is going alright, I am feeling the Christmas Stress but not too bad. My stomach has held up pretty well, and I cannot tell you how nice it's been to be able to cook in a nice big kitchen. I have been sticking to really safe food lately, as I am quite afraid of an attack hitting at any moment because I feel a bit fragile. I took a bunch of immodium for the plane ride on Wednesday, and since haven't really been able to go.. so that's a bit worrying. This happened to me last year when I flew back to England and felt fine without going for about 6 days and then suddenly got wicked cramps, a really bad fever and convulsions and my heart went insane.. so I am hoping I can avoid that this year!
Adrian is doing pretty well, he seems to be settling in... he says he feels like he is okay, but that he feels like he might freak out at any minute.. hasn't happened yet, I think we may get through Christmas before it really sinks it for him that he really has moved all this way!
I've seen quite a few friends, one is already super clingy and I've found that she wants our friendship to go back to just exactly as it was 2 years ago; pre-boyfriend, pre-IBS (well, major IBS). I have a feeling a conflict will come up at some point and a 'talk' will be had.. oh, how I hate 'talks'.
At first, my parents were great and I think they were just happy to have me home but I think that's fading now and I am beginning to remember some of the reasons I left in the first place, which is scary. My mom is so hard to live with sometimes, I thought it would be different but its not really. I put my shoes down on the floor, then went to pick some other stuff up and all of a sudden, she was all huffy and said really loud, <caron>Well, I guess you are just going to leave those shoes there for your Dad or me to pick up!!' I felt like I was 14 again! I had no intention of leaving them, but I can only do one thing at a time! I was sort of stunned, and just picked them up and walked away.. it's stuff like that happens all the time. The other thing I can see as a problem is that she is trying to get really buddy-buddy with Adrian and even though I am so glad they get along, I don't like that she says bad things about me to my boyfriend... her loyalty should lie with me! His does, and he doesn<caron>t listen to her, but it still bothers me. She makes me feel like I am a little kid again and I have to run everything I do by her, which I am not inclined to do because she is so critical and judgemental and basically tells me I'm wrong.
Today we have to go out to my Uncle's (who passed away) and go through all his stuff, and she really gets loud and emotional about the whole thing which freaks me right out 'cause I dunno how to deal with it. I said she didn't have to go, but she is insisting she goes. I am hoping my stomach can handle the stress, and I can just get it over with. Then all my family is coming for dinner.
I also have bad jetlag, a bad cold (from the plane, methinks) and allergies that are all making me tired and irritable and I haven't had any time to myself or with Adrian to just relax...
Don't get me wrong, I am really glad to be home but I knew Christmas would be hard and it is jus turning out a bit more overwhelming than I thought. I have an apointment Wednesday to see my doctor, and maybe get a referral to a counsellor (I might go through the University).
Talk to you soon!
--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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