Hi Brittany, I agree with Sinead, I love hearing/talking about fun 'fall in love' stories, I can't get enough! You're not butting in at all! I also agree with the self confidence thing - I have a friend who is SO HARD on herself and she is always putting herself down, and then she wonders why she doesn't have a boyfriend.. and then puts herself down about that, it is a vicious cycle, I tell you! It's too bad 'cause she is so SO nice and so SO funny, but she sort of gives off a 'don't come near me' vibe. I had problems with self conscious stuff, especially about my body that boys I'd grown up with had sorta drilled into me. It wasn't until I got away (to England) that I sorta let go of all that, and them wham-o! Boyfriend for me! And since getting together with him, my self confidence is miles higher as he managed to convince me that a lot of the things I'd been feeling self conscious about were ridiculous (in a nice way, of course!).
As for marriage, I don't know. I mean.. hmm, eventually yes. We've talked about it, and when we talk about the future we can say, "After we get married" casually and stuff, and not freak out about it (anymore! ) but I'm not expecting a ring on my finger tomorrow.. or the day after, or the day after.. You know what I mean! My family is really starting to push about it (I'm only 22!). My mom keeps telling me how my grandma has picked me out a wedding dress, and when I was at home for Christmas (when Adrian and I were planning to break up no less!) she wanted me to go to Bridal fairs with her and stuff. I got some money when my Uncle died and she has already put it into a "Wedding Fund" (which concerns me as I was hoping to use it for school).. so apparently everyone else is planning for this marriage more than I am at this point! I do eventually want to have a nice wedding, and get married but there are lots of other things I want to do first. I'd like to be engaged for a while too.. I think that sounds like a nice stage.. having a fiance. But my boyfriend thinks long engagements are stupid, so I guess that's outta the question for me! Unless I just keep stalling, hee hee. --Steph
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