Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Loofa scrub and OA meeting

Ok...I slept for only 5.5 hours last night (at most) on TWO sleeping meds.

So i wen to the 6 am OA meeting this morning. And you won't believe what I wtore to my sponsor afterward:

"my fam is coming and they don't know about OA. but if i need to tell them...if it comes up...who cares? if they don't like it, which i would love it if they're supportive...that's ok with me. i feel calm. they don't have to like the choices i make (is this coming out of MY muth?!?!) but it is the right one/best one for me.

wow! this is new. assertive, calm?"

he-LLO! i still ccan't believe I wrote that?!?!

Then last night at Walgreens to pick up my script I bought mysef a loofa scrub. Hubby and I just dont' spend mony on things like that! but my shower this morning was just GLORIOUS!

i need new clothes i've gained about 30 lbs since hubby and I got marries (more like 35), and I bought a jacket that would cover my hips (religious reasons) for $25 at WalMart and hubby's like "take it back and you can get the blankie you want". we have like no money to spend! i don't know whjat to do. i want a comfy blankie to curl up and snugfle with...but I NEED clothes! i wish there was some easy way to figurew this all out....

ok, ok...i'll try and let the dishes go. it's gonna be REAL HARD though! i did vacuum this am but it wasn't the best of ideas.....no more heavy objects or this gal!

my b-day in in Nov...so I think i may keeo the jacket as a b-day present.

i'm wokring on a routine to relax. showres, candles, music, warm booties on my footsies, warm/soft blankie, coloribng book, and thats it for now. i see that i really need to be relaxed to help with the pain!

i'm on low dose ad's...i think i need something for anxiety perosnally...

okie dokie...i DO have to go to the storew today...and get food...and i think while i'm out i'll get that blankie (it ain't cheap...$33...but it' not over the top either, is it?)

thanks for being hee for me...this is a touhg time for my hubby and I! it helps to have all of you here! *hug*

p.s. i do have a therapist......and she helps...but an hour a week ain't enough for now...i know one day it will be tho and I SO look foeward to that day!

Love and *hugs*

Ruchie

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Formerly known as Ruchie

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