Reged: 08/09/04
Posts: 2996
Loc: South East Michigan
I started my period today. No baby this month. I am not sure what I am going to do now. I have to decide by tommrow if I am going to start the pill this month. I am so depressed and confused. I just don't know what to do. I am pretty sure my hormones S/P? all messed up because I have started getting black hair on my chin and breasts My doctor said that she will test my hormones on Oct 13 when I see her next. I just want to crawl in bed and forget anything else in the world excists. I have to play the happy Aunt tonight to. All my nieces and nephews are spending the night. I want to cry but I can't. I am just so depressed again. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to quit trying but feel selfess for it. I feel like I should just suck it up and deal till I get pregnant. Then try to manage the IBS. I just needed to get this out. I feel like there is something wrong with me as a person. Like I don't feel like other people do. I don't know, it is hard to explain. In my head I feel like I am going nuts. I can pitcure my self rocking back in forth in the floor pulling my hair and I have fight real hard some times not to let myself do it. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want ot go anywhere. What the hell is the matter with me. I am taking my Zoloft. I just don't get it. I just want it to end.
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No baby this month
My doctor said that she will test my hormones on Oct 13 when I see her next. I just want to crawl in bed and forget anything else in the world excists. I have to play the happy Aunt tonight to. All my nieces and nephews are spending the night. I want to cry but I can't. I am just so depressed again. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to quit trying but feel selfess for it. I feel like I should just suck it up and deal till I get pregnant. Then try to manage the IBS. I just needed to get this out. I feel like there is something wrong with me as a person. Like I don't feel like other people do. I don't know, it is hard to explain. In my head I feel like I am going nuts. I can pitcure my self rocking back in forth in the floor pulling my hair and I have fight real hard some times not to let myself do it. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want ot go anywhere. What the hell is the matter with me. I am taking my Zoloft. I just don't get it. I just want it to end.
