Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | **SCREAM** I AM NOT <CENSORED>ING CRAZY!!!

Hi all,
Okay, first of all I should say that I am in a right rotten mood this morning which might make this all sound worse but I am so mad I could scream. After getting up at 5 every morning to go work after getting no sleep, today was my one day to sleep-in and try and catch up before I work a late shift tonight and then it's back to work again at 7 AM tomorrow (on a Saturday!!).. so my bf's mom says there is a guy coming at 8 AM that I have to let in to fix the door.. So my bf says he will do it, so that's great... But the door guy is late, bf gets up and makes SO MUCH NOISE all morning than I end up getting not five minutes of a sleep-in and THEN he takes off, so I have to just wait for this man to come... AND my bf tells me I am just grumpy in the morning so to just relax... NO! I _needed_ some extra sleep and he said he'd stay to let the guy in... *grumble* Anyway, that is why I am grumpy this morning..
I went to see a doctor yesterday to get a re-fill on my prescription, and I asked her about what's going on with my throat. It used to bother me every few days, then every day, now pretty much all the time... every time I eat, and sometimes just for no reason at all... it feels like there is something stuck in my throat (but only on one side) and it makes it hard for me to breath.
So she pretty much told me I was imagining it.
She is a doctor I have never seen before, and she didn't even look at my throat... She just said, "Oh, you have IBS.. they tried you on medication for reflux (which, by the way, I had to stop not because it wasn't working but because it gave me such bad D that I couldn't function).. it still bothers you... Yeah, it's nothing."
It is so frustrating because I have just tried to ignore it for so long but it seriously makes me miserable, it bothers me almost the whole day at work and makes me start to feel panicked when it gets harder to breath (which she said was just a panic attack and advised me to, and I quote, "chill out").
Now I CAN accept that it isn't a physical problem and it is brought on by anxiety if that's what's causing it, but since it has been bothering me every day for MONTHS and I hate going to the doctor and I really had to force myself, I would have AT LEAST liked her to look.. or to ask me questions.. or something.
I just ate some cereal, and of course it's doing it again. Why, when I feel less stressed than I have in the past so many months, would I be getting anxiety attacks every day in the form of a bad throat? I told her I felt less stressed than ever, and she basically said that wasn't true.. even though, like I said, she'd never met me before.
I am just feeling frustrated... and tired... _Now_ I feel anxiety, whereas before I was okay.
Just needed to vent, when I told my boyfriend she said I was imagining it, he just said, "Well, there you go.. that must be it" and that was the end of it. Grrr.
--Steph

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