I remember that all so well! It hurt so bad sometimes I'd curl my toes. Hang in there. Like Angela said don't beat yourself up if you can't do it. I lasted only 6 weeks with the firt(breast infection stopped me, talk about toe curling YIKES!)then the second one I lasted 9 weeks. Both are very healthy kids today. Never had a single ear infection with either of them. The nutrients come out in the first two weeks anyway! Lots of luck to ya!!!