Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | OK, it's time to admit that I need help and I don't know what to do....

I am beginning to realize that I have a very serious problem with food. Actually, I've always known but it's extended into something more. I have been bulimic (not admitted easily) for almost 22yrs, right after the birth of my oldest daughter. It's been better since my IBS started, ironic isn't it? I've spent the past 18 months getting the IBS under control but now I can't stop thinking about food! I wake up thinking about what I'll eat that day, not just my first meal, but the whole day. Sometimes I even start thinking about the next day's meals. I constantly want to eat. I have gained 20 pounds in the past 18 months, which puts me at 145(I'm 5'5) not terribly bad, but I'm afraid of it getting worse. Obviously, my weight has always been a struggle and fear for me. Does anyone else go through anything like this? Do you know of anything (web sites, books, support groups etc..) that can help with something like this? I'm at a cross roads about my weight. At times I can accept a few extra pounds, but then I start to worry about what if I can't stop gaining?? I would really like to learn to accept me at whatever weight I am at, but also don't want to be unhealthy. That's the main reason I want to get it under control. I'm 41 and know I need to stay healthy.

I'm beginning to feel insane about it. I would just like to stop thinking about food every, and I do mean EVERY, minute of the day! Arggghhhhhh....... Any input is greatly appreciated, more than you guys will every know.
Alyson

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