I just left my boss's office where I was called in to be counseled on "excessive sick leave use". On top of that, he wants me to do a grant that only he will get credit for. I am going from D to C constantly, my abdominal pain has heightened, the Fennel tea is causing me to have too much gas so that I am afraid to be in a room with other people.
I am so sick and tired of this IBS. I feel as if I don't have a life anymore!
Before the IBS problems started, I was hardly ever out "sick". I wish for just one day, twenty-four hours, people could feel what we go through daily and this includes our Gastroenterologists! They would not be so quick to judge if they could barely (and sometimes don't) make it to the bathroom just down the hall. Or get there and find that it is crowded!!!!!
At work, they seem to think it's no big deal. Just take a Mylanta and come on into work whether you are D or C, you can always use the bathroom at work. Can you believe this! I have to constantly spray "Oust in my own bathroom after usage.
I just feel like I'm being picked on today. It's not enough that I am trying my best to deal with my digestive problems and life general problems, I feel that I should feel guilty if I am too sick to come to work and might get laid off because I am "sick", it's not fair!!!!!! (tears).
I don't mean to be so negative, but I am very depressed by this whole thing and needed to tell someone that understands.
Thanks for letting me vent guys. I will do my best to be at work everyday, but just as I told my boss, if I am sick, I am sick; no ifs, ands or buts about it!
I will have to let go of the guilt I feel when I have to call in sick because I have been up all night with "D" or my abdominal pain is so intense all I can do is place a hot water bag on it and pray to God for relief.
None of us chose to have IBS. This is the hand we were dealt and we just have to do the best we can with it.
I am on the "what to eat when you can't eat anything" diet now.
I think I willl just go find me a quiet place and cry. I need a good cry.
Thanks for listening.
Lene
-------------------- God never promised life would be easy, but he did promise to provide a way out!
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