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Hi,

I don't think the caffine high (permanent panic atttack) is because of the pills - they probably haven't started working yet. I think the difference is that today I have actually admitted I have a problem, whereas before I was looking for a quick fix, trying to go into work, constantly fighting it etc.

I know what Hans means about taking every minute at a time. I think my brain is just tired from having to deal with everything. I am really scared that once I stop taking the sleeping tablets in two days, that I will not be able to sleep again, as I can feel the panic waiting to surface.

I'm just mentally exhausted and can't believe this is actually happening to me. I keep trying to do small things like make a cup of tea for my partner, go for a walk, make biscuits etc but it all seems like such a slog. Not that I could sleep anyway, or read, or watch telly and I've lost my appetite (but at least IBS has taught me how to force feed myself!). This isn't like me, I'm usually so optimistic - to the outside world at least!

hmmpphh! bblleuurrrgghh!

Thanks for the advice - this is one place where I know people have been through and survived this and much worse.

I'm speaking to my therapist later, but he keeps giving me conflicting advice to my doctors like don't take meds or sleeping tablets and through these mind techniques I can be back at work by monday. Frankly I think it's gone way past that point, so Im ignoring him and taking the meds like my doctor said - although the techniques are good long term coping strategies.

I'm sorry I seem to be hogging the boards at the moment with my problems - I just hope I can help someone else in the future if they need it.

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