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jhuggs, boy do I love you guys. So special of you to really care. I'm in sales, until now it was an inside sales position, but they just changed their policy and are going to require all inside sales staff to travel & see customers. It's been tough these last few weeks. The stress of the whole thing is DEFINITELY not helping. I can't even sit in at a stupid 45 min meeting, I start hyperventilating just thinking of it. I'm about to sit down and write my doctor's note (secretary asked me to write it and send it to her and she'll edit and have the doctor sign it.) So at least I'm past being frozen with fear, and I'm actually taking action to protect myself.
There is a silver lining though in this whole picture. My children are 19 and 21. So at this point, if I am on unemployment for a while they will be able to take care of themselves, although I would love to still be able to help them financially. The other interesting thing about all this, especially after reading in Heather's book 1st year with IBS where she talks about relocating for better weather, is that I've been thinking about moving to Israel for a while now, but been hesitating because I reckon I'll go way down in salary with any job over there, although the lifestyle there is on a lower scale so one doesn't need as much dough there as here in NY. This situation is really pushing me to think more seriously about why I want to move (weather is one reason, there are areas there that never experience humidity, just dry heat and cool clear air)and I might just take the plunge, and risk it. In addition, my daughter who has been studying in Israel for over a year now, told me that she wants to settle there. So maybe all of this is a God send, pushing me to a place that will ultimately be better for me. My friends tell me day to day life there is simpler, happier and less stressful. I'm about ready to believe them and leave this place behind. Today I spent a big portion of it in the bathroom. I know that working in an environment with a manager and boss who couldnt care less about my wellbeing is just simply not healthy for me. It's toxic. So, again, thank you for being so supportive and I will keep you posted.
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Sarah

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