That last sentence - when did I become this person - that's how I feel too. I've reverted back to disordered eating since getting onto this diet. It's bizarre because physically my digestive system is feeling better than it has in years, but now the phobia about food has just taken control of my mental life and I think I have seized on this diet as a means to define the eating rules again, which dictate my life. But I can't give up because my insides are working so well and I no longer bloat/have c/have stomach cramps daily. It's ridiculous. And I don't hide it, my family and boyfriend know what I'm doing again, I just don't know how to stop and go back to normal.
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Re: I feel So depressed and Helpless and have no one to talk to
