Re: Two Questions
08/22/07 12:35 PM
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Jesus, I'm gonna be a friggin' walkin' pharmacy! (there goes the NY accent!)
Isn't it funny that at night we feel better? It doesn't matter if it's because I'm home because even when I was home and had bad days, right around 9ish I became normal. Friggin' call me Dr. Jeckyl and Ms. Hyde!
I was off of work for 3 weeks and returned this past Monday the 20th. I had good days from Thursday the 16th all the way thru Monday when I returned to work. Good days meaning I felt minimal anxiety and I could somewhat eat. However, I knew it would be shortlived because when I have good consecutive days, it's usually just the eye of the storm. So, Tuesday, the 21st was a Fair day (rating from Poor to Excellent), and today Wednesday the 22nd I was Poor. Going to the bathroom wasn't the problem, it's the anxiety and nerves that kick in and so I get nauseaus and don't eat, etc. But, as is always the case, I start feeling better towards the end of the work day and I'm 100% the old normal me by the time I go to bed. When my appetite finally kicks in while at work or anywhere else that's not home, I'll eat something teeny and as soon as I feel what was once a normal-doesn't-need-any-attention flutter in my stomach, I get nervous that I'm going to have to go and so the anxiety starts up again 'cause I worry about how I'm going to get home. My gut will stress my brain which will then aggravate my gut which will then stress my brain--and so the vicious circle starts. I'm like a dog chasing his tail!
I've realized that I'm scared to eat food anywhere that's not in my house, even if it's safe food that I've prepared and brought with me. Yes, I may need therapy. Not only am I now mental, I'm going to be Nicole Richie Part Deux if I keep this up!
Yeah, I need to look up what kinds of vitamins I can take. I'm C but when nerves kick in, I have D cramps but what comes out is hunky loosey goosey poopies. Now I'm talking like a baby. What the frig is going on with me?!
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Wendy IBS A thru Z 
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