hi all,
i'm new, though i have been lurking since i got diagnosed about two years ago.
i think i'm ibs-a but more towards d
here is my situation, when i first realized and then got diagnosed with ibs, i followed the diet, exercised and all seemed to be fine. once i got stable,and after a year of following the ibs safe eating, i lost 40+ lbs from 147 to 102 i'm 5'1'' and i also went from being diagnosed with pcos and not having any periods (my whole life), to having a monthly period...and too my horror...within months i had the most awful pain ever two weeks before my period would start, d, and then eventually nausea. after about nine months i went to the dr. and they diagnosed me with endometriosis, and felt that the ibs diagnose still stood. here is where i got stupid and confused i think. my dr put me on the depo shot to help with the endo...and i think i thought that since i wasn't having any problems with my ibs (because i was probably eating right before the periods came-about a year btw of eating right, exercising, etc. before the pcos disappeared) i somehow figured ibs wasn't a problem...so now i am not having period pain, but now i have the most god-awful bm, afterwards i have a severe painful bloating feeling, that lasts for a long time...sometimes a whole day and a feeling that i need to go again, but i can't. and even though i don't have a period but every three months (because of the shot) once a month i have a mild ibs/period attack (i think) i get a bad tummy ache, d, i dont eat because of the pain, i get unstable. but other than that i am pretty much fine as long as i still clear of even smelling anything with an ounce of diary in it.
my question is (and i know its stupid) but am i making myself worse by not eating when i have this awful d, and bloat and gas. i will literally go almost a whole day without eating, because the pain is so bad...but i will say i do take my probiotic no matter what. i just find it so hard and scarry to eat when i feel so horrible, my dh tells me that is the problem, but again i get paralyzed with the thought of eating because of the severe cramping, pain, and d. what i usually do is after a day or so of "fasting" i slowly start back with eating, toast, rice, chicken. and honestly that's all i eat now days. i remember i use to eat lots of squash, mushrooms, and other stuff. but as of the last six months this is my diet:
breakfst: 4 slices of toast with soy milk
lunch: i forget or don't make time better yer (i am a sahm with a 4yr old and 2.5 yr old, and i if i can't grab and eat it while i'm busy with them i just wait till dh gets home and then i can breath and eat)
dinner: (usually 6-7 hrs after breakfast...i will eat rice or baked fries and either chicken breast or some sort of fish)
i will say that i will snack on a hand full of plain chips (which i think is a trigger for me now) or some other frivoulous thing here and there...but this is my sad diet. i have become so fearful of eating, that i think sometimes i purposely forget.
i know it sounds like a stupid question, but is my problem that i'm not eating enough? i don't know why i got scared off of the squash and mushrooms, but i don't know how to start myself on the right track, how to move from the fear of another attack.
i want to try some of the teas reccommended here, but i am so afraid of trying something new, i guess that is why i eat like i do.
thanks for letting me vent, i know i sound rambled and all over the place, just feels like so much to get out. please give me some encouragement and guidance.
btw, i also notice that stress is a big thing for me and lack of sleep...within the last four months my 2 yr old broke his collar bone (he's a daredevil), my mil got diagnosed with breast cancer, my grandmother (my best friend) has gotten really sick and she's an hour away from me, and a close friend of mines passed unexpectedly. i haven't been able to sleep well. i've been worrying about so much lately.
anyway, some advice and guidance would really put a smile on my face...thanks for listening
kiki
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