I am so frustrated and just need to vent for a moment. I can totally see now why it takes people so long to get stable. There is so much to consider! I did as some of you suggested and didn't take the probiotic last night or digestive enzymes today. This morning I felt fine, had my soyfee with acacia, a bowl of oatmeal with bananas, and an ounce or so of orange juice diluted (I thought I'd give the juice a try again as my IF). No BM. Then lunchtime I had a blueberry/banana smoothie with soy milk and acacia along with a piece of white toast and smart balance (something I've been very successful with these last weeks). So it figured that the IF gave me a bm. No biggie, right? That's the idea...only after it happened, I started to have a panic attack about going trick or treating around the neighborhood today with my kids and neighbors/friends. Then my belly started to gurgle and I laid down only to start feeling worse. I know it was stress-induced. I'm almost sure of it. It's because in the last week I have had so many bms per day that I would never be able to trick-or-treat just in case. So I took 1 immodium...I figured just one b/c I didn't want to screw up my system so much now that I want to see how it does with just the Acacia. So a few more minutes pass and I'm still freaking out, so I take a tranquilizer type pill (1/2) that my doc. gave me in emergencies (can't think of the name). I've only used it like 5 times in the last year (twice on to and fro plane flights and one other time for a big event). I used to be on Lexapro for the anxiety but I feel much better now and the anxiety is strictly situational. Especially with the Acacia and diet awareness now, I feel more confident so I'd rather not go back on anything. It's not that strong anyhow for those intense anxiety moments. I already take Librax which has some anxiety medicine in it. Anyhow...I digress...so then I take another immodium b/c I'm still nervous, stomach is gurgling, and we go out. Successful trip...my husband was with me so I could have left (would have been a bit embarrassing but so what) but I what I was nervous about was being blocks away from my house. Of course we joked and said I could have said, "Trick or treat..can I use your bathroom?" lol...i wouldn't put it past me. Anyway, my point is, I feel so ridiculous that I "wasted" an anxiety pill and 2 immodium which will now throw off my whole bm system just for HALLOWEEN TRICK OR TREATING!!!! IT'S SO STUPID...IT'S NOT LIKE I WAS FLYING ON A PLANE OR HOSTING SOME HUGE BANQUET OR SOMETHING.  I feel like it is going to take me so long to figure out what works with the SF and IF b/c I'll keep getting thrown into real life situations that I can't "chance." If I knew my body and system better, I'd feel less anxious but I'll never find that out if I keep readjusting what I ingest both foodwise and medicine/supplement wise. Some of you have suggested taking just 1/2 an immodium or one so as not to throw me into c for a few days, but see what happened? I wasn't confident that a small amount would be enough assurance for me not to have an accident. I'm not there yet. When will I get there????????!!!!! Sorry...just feeling silly for getting so worked up over a little candy collecting. Thanks for letting me vent. Happy Halloween 
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Originally IBS-D for a million years!
Then IBS-A, Now a transformed slightly C
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