I just successfully returned from a family trip (only took Immodium 3 times) where we had to fly and spend lots of time with my in-laws (who have a general understanding of my IBS but as you know, no one really understands unless they have it). Anyhow, I am thrilled and extremely thankful to have found this website so that I have a bit more control now over my IBS but I just need to vent that I feel like I am on a typical regular diet that people go on to lose weight and I'm angry that I can't eat half the foods that I love, including coffee and ice cream and things with mozzarella cheese. Yes, I know...think substitution, not deprivation, yet this is difficult when on vacation and I was getting depressed after eating about my fourth grilled chicken sandwich in 3 days. (It didn't help that my Soyfee came in the mail the night before we left for our vacation, so I spent the week drinking that and going through caffeine withdrawal..talk about cranky...I had a headache and one day was SOO close to going to the Starbucks RIGHT DOWNSTAIRS!!! and cheating but I'm proud I didn't.)
One night, we planned on going to an American style restaurant so I was looking forward to ordering something IBS safe but at least tasty and nutritious...then the wait was too long for our kids so everybody said let's just go to "Cheeseburger- Cheeseburger"...I almost cried right then and there. My kids were cranky and I didn't feel comfortable protesting, so I just wound up taking it out on my husband when we were ordering when everyone got a hamburger and a milk shake!!! I ordered a stupid grilled chicken sandwhich AGAIN and watched/smelled the french fries, onion rings, and ice cream faces on everyone...UGH!!! I was so annoyed...I just wanted a piece of fish and rice or something nutritious, but worst of all, I am not good with willpower and it's dreadful/depressing to feel left out and have your IBS difference basically thrown in your face.
On the plane ride home, I was hoping the "snack" would include something IBS friendly but instead I watched everyone eat the trail mix with peanuts/white chocolate/raisins, M&Ms, salami and cheese. There were saltines that were stale so I just ate my graham crackers b/c I was petrified to eat anything else. Okay, sorry I'm carrying on and sounding like a martyr...when put into perspective, I know there are worse things in the world...I know this is best for my health and I truly appreciate all of Heather's suggestions and the advice from all of you wonderful comarades. I am just at the beginning, but I can see already that I will have less anxiety and better quality of life if I can get myself stable. I just needed to vent and I'm wondering how often others feel this way and what you do to stop yourself from being angry/depressed. (I was on an anti-d that I think I might go back on but I don't think that will stop me from these momemtary outbursts!!!)How do you all have so much willpower and courage to stick with this diet and remembering to take all the supplements, etc.. without getting frustrated and just wishing you were "normal"?  Thanks for listening!
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Originally IBS-D for a million years!
Then IBS-A, Now a transformed slightly C
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Feeling bitter sweet...need some encouragement
