okay i do not get this now. last week and a half i was feeling good, having normal BM's, no cramps, not much bloating..la di da--you know all the good things each IBSer is trying to find. and then THIS WEEK its like somebody up there doesnt like me very much. last week i said aloud that i thought i was gaining stability and low and behold i lose it! thats just so unfair. ive been eating safe foods, writing down in my personal journal each thing i eat and making side-notes about foods that irritate me. nothings changed so why did my bowel cycles? i havent been stressed either. i feel so pathetic and awful and i just look at myself and want to cry b/c each time i think i find a way out of this hell i just go back in circles again to the beginning. im going out to eat w/my bestfriend soon to a korean vegan restaurant and i feel like i couldnt fit anything else in my tum if i tried!! its so bloated and puffy now..and ive been all cramped and twisted since my green-bean day. does anyone else feel if they say they're stable out loud that they become jinxed and lose their stability??? ive been thinking that since highschool!!! i can only count 5-6 times that i was stable and lost it [i guess im supersticious [sp?] nonetheless im so effing mad i think this deserves 2 mean faces--> i want to go to a doctor but not mine b/c he doesnt seem to believe in natural remedies [ie: this whole site] i brought info for my last visit but i think he was just trying to humor me while i talked about my diet alterations since finding heather's home here. i even brought spreadsheets! when will i get better? ohhh when oh when oh when? sorry for this little rant. i was sitting back in my chair when i noticed...the bloat and upset it made me [yoda] *sigh* grrr humph. ps--i only notice this utter discomfort when im going thru PMS symptoms which seem to be coming earlier and earlier as the months pass--anyone else have that? maybe its normal but i get my PMS stuff almost 2.5 weeks before my actual period! and when i get that..there is no warning. well thanks again guys for reading this. arg.
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oh the frustration
i think this deserves 2 mean faces--> 
sorry for this little rant. i was sitting back in my chair when i noticed...the bloat and upset it made me [yoda] *sigh* grrr humph. ps--i only notice this utter discomfort when im going thru PMS symptoms which seem to be coming earlier and earlier as the months pass--anyone else have that? maybe its normal but i get my PMS stuff almost 2.5 weeks before my actual period! and when i get that..there is no warning. well thanks again guys for reading this. arg.
