Thanks Cyndy, I as I said before I really appreciate your honesty. And thank you for sharing your experiences with me so I have an understanding of where you are coming from. I for sure will take a walk today, I know, it always makes me feel better. I do find that when I am around other people, even if I'm in pain, I always feel at least a little bit better. Yeah I think it was a bad move on my part to totally stop my life to focus completly on healing, but I felt like working was stressing me out and making things worse (weight loss and not sleeping at all), so that's why I decided to drop everything.... now I'm realizing that although I was stressed, I wasn't so focused on this and depressed! Healing is such a bizarre issue, and I totally understand how a year or two can go by trying to focus on healing and doing nothing else- it becomes a downward spiral. Congradulations for getting your life back and focusing on healing at the same time! I hope to be there soon as well...