Hey Beth...... I totally understand your not wanting to use laxatives and the fear of coming dependent. I honestly am AMAZED after all the chronic laxative use i've had for years that my bowels now move w/just the citrucel and zelnorm and mushy diet. I think you asked how much citrucel I take. I've been at just 1/2 tsp a day until 2 days ago I started adding another 1/2 tsp. We'll see how that goes. The only thing I can tell you about the laxatives is that the only one I will use anymore is by renewlife (cleansemore) and only becuase a few different doctors have told me that the ingredients are non-addictive to the bowels. Again, that's only what i've been told, and I appreciate your apprehension and not wanting to make things worse in the future. By the way, I am mostly from south suburbs.... palos hills, tinley area. And I lived in naperville for many years. Hang in Beth. p.s. have you tried baby food?