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#316744 - 10/16/07 10:48 AM
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Toady
Reged: 04/06/06
Posts: 1299
Loc: A small city, Northwestern Ontario, Canada
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I'm just frustrated and need to scream!!!
There are issues in my office - huge issues - attendance, lunch breaks etc. If you're having a spread for lunch, you shouldn't eat at your desk. If it's a snack or sandwich the owners have no problem. My asst today starts muttering under her breath "F***ing eating sandwiches at her desk..." refering to me. (I'm eating a PB & J) When she bring lunch it's a salad and a sandwich or soup and a sandwich and takes her half an hour to eat. I'm eating with one hand and typing with the other. Grrrr.....
There's a lot of issues right now. I just cannot take it anymore! I have 2 job interviews this week - one tonight over the phone and one on Friday - a 2nd interview at a law firm. But I've been warned the lawyer I'm interviewing with is "unpleasant" to work for. Have to see.
So, my vent:
I'M TIRED OF PUSSY-FOOTING AROUND MY JOB WHERE I AM THE SUPERVISOR BECAUSE I MIGHT STEP ON SOMEBODY'S TOES. I'M TIRED OF BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR SOMEONE WHO IS NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THEMSELF. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING CALLED TWO FACED AND BACK-STABBING BY MY ASST.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT A NEW JOB!!!
Next person, please feel free to vent, the platform is all yours!
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Cassandra
Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like you've never loved before.
IBS A 20+ years, Chronic Migraines, Chiari Malformation (decompressed June 22, 2010), Brachial Neuritis, and ??? the list just keeps growing, but I'm still shiny side up! 
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Toady!!! What a coincidence!!! I had a bad attack this morning, came to work for an hour and had to go home for a couple hours. I came back to work and on my drive back (15 minute drive) I was thinking "I need to go back to Pike's Peak" and I was going to post it as soon as I had a chance. I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. It really s^@ks when there are people who make life miserable at work. Here's wishing you the best in finding a new job.
Here's my vent:
I'M SO TIRED OF NOT BEING "NORMAL". I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PLAN A CAMPING TRIP WITHOUT WORRYING 2 WEEKS IN ADVANCE ABOUT POSSIBLY BEING "SICK". (hubby and I are planning on going to the mountains and setting up his hunting camp in two weeks before he goes hunting...I won't be able to take a week off to go hunting with him, but I can go for a weekend when he sets up camp.) I'M TIRED OF CONSTANTLY MAKING SURE I KNOW WHERE THE BATHROOM IS WHERE EVER I AM! I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS HAVING TO THINK ABOUT WHAT I EAT TO AVOID THE CONSIQUENCES LATER! I'M TIRED OF HAVING TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE WHY I DON'T FEEL GOOD. OTHER PEOPLE JUST HAVE A DAY OR TWO WHERE THEY DON'T FEEL GOOD AND DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN IT. WHEN I DON'T FEEL GOOD I ALWAYS HEAR "OH...IS IT YOUR STOMACH AGAIN. DO YOU THINK YOU ATE SOMETHING YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE? DO YOU THINK YOU'LL FEEL BETTER TOMORROW?" I'M SICK OF THE STRESS AND ANXIETY THIS "SYNDROME" CAUSES. I'M TIRED OF "PAYING THE PRICE" IF I EAT SOMETHING I SHOULDN'T! I'M SICK OF IBS!!!!!!!!!
thanks for listening...{{{hugs}}}
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Nugget, in response to our other thread where we were discussing therapy (and the lack thereof), I think you're absolutely right that venting on these message boards to other people who actually "get" what we're feeling and trying to convey is so helpful! And Pud, I sympathize with your work problems. I got a royal stab in the back from my former boss a couple months ago and it really hurts.
Hence, I am going to vent and take part in Pike's Peak!
My rant:
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF WORRYING ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING I PUT INTO MY MOUTH! I AM TIRED OF THE FACT THAT EVERY TIME I LEAVE MY HOUSE, MY BRAIN AUTOMATICALLY STARTS FREAKING ABOUT WHETHER I WILL HAVE AN ATTACK WHILE I'M OUT AND WHETHER I'LL BE ABLE TO FIND A BATHROOM. I AM TIRED OF HAVING TO REPEATEDLY EXPLAIN TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT I DON'T FEEL GOOD AND NO IT'S NOT GOING AWAY, I'M STUCK WITH THIS FOR LIFE! I AM TIRED OF BEING ASKED "DON'T YOU THINK IF YOU STOPPED THINKING ABOUT WHAT YOU ATE ALL THE TIME YOUR STOMACH WOULD FEEL BETTER?" AND GETTING THE SUGGESTIONS "WHY DON'T YOU JUST FORGET ABOUT IT AND TRY TO RELAX." I AM BASICALLY FED UP WITH PEOPLE INSINUATING THAT I AM CAUSING MY PROBLEMS OR IMAGINING THEM. THE PAIN IS SO REAL SOMETIMES I VOMIT, SHAKE AND NEARLY PASS OUT! HOW CAN THEY NOT REALIZE THAT IS A REAL AILMENT? I AM SICK OF WORRYING ABOUT WHETHER I'LL FIND A JOB ANYTIME SOON. THE STRESS OF FINDING THE MONEY TO PAY MY STUDENT LOANS AND MY BILLS IS MAKING MY TUMMY HURT MORE AND MORE THESE DAYS AND IT SUCKS! I AM SO ANGRY AT MY FORMER BOSS FOR COMPLETELY SCREWING ME OVER AND PUTTING ME IN THIS POSITION TO BEGIN WITH! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT AFTER ALL THE HARD WORK AND LOYALTY I SHOWED HIM AND AFTER I SCRAMBLED REPEATED TIME TO COVER HIS BUTT WHEN HE DROPPED THE BALL IN OUR CASES THAT HE DIDN'T HAVE THE DECENCY TO GIVE ME ANY WARNING PRIOR TO LETTING ME GO AND WAS A COMPLETE COWARD AND DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE ME ANY GOOD REASONS WHY. I HATE HATE HATE BEING STABBED IN THE BACK BY PEOPLE WHOM I TRUSTED.
There. I feel a bit better. Thanks for creating Pike's Peak guys
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So I guess I'm new to posting on the boards although I've been keeping myself updated on everyone else's posts for quite sometime...however, I did come across these posts--"Pike's Peak" which I'd really like to be a part of..so I hope it's ok if I just vent as well...I really need to...
So here it goes:
lately I've been dealing with alot of crap from everyone, especially my family because of the weight I've lost since the start of IBS...and I'm sure a ton of other people have said this, but I'm truly starting to believe that no one gets it because if one more person says I look anorexic I think I may just flip!
So here's my point:
Doesn't anyone understand that I'd love to just sit down and eat a normal cupcake with REAL frosting or a boston cream donut from dunkin donuts with a hot cup of french vanilla coffee LIKE I USED TO! BUT I CAN'T!! I JUST CANT!! and how is my weight anyone else's concern but MY OWN! especially the friends of my family memebers who I'VE NEVER EVEN MET (i might add) WHO THINK THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO TELL MY FAMILY THAT I LOOK ANOREXIC BECAUSE I DONT!! I'm tied of worrying whether or not their will be traffic everytime I drive that might prevent me from using the bathroom if I need it! I'M EXAHUSTED FROM PEOPLE CONSTANTLY ASKING "CAN YOU EAT THIS?"...."CAN YOU EAT THIS?"..."NO?"...."WELL WHAT ABOUT THIS?" NO! NO!! NO!!!...I CAN'T EAT ANY OF THAT SO STOP ASKING!! I'm sick and tired, and angry and just sad that I'll possibly never be able to enjoy that REAL Chocolate chip cookie or slice of cheesecake, but will instead have to settle for my rice cakes with reduced-fat peanut butter....and you know I would be perfectly fine with my rice cakes except for the fact that everyone keeps shoving in my face the foods I CAN'T EAT AND THEN PROCEEDING TO CALL ME ANOREXIC!!
I hope it's ok I joined in on this venting circle..thanks for listening 
Edited by alli327 (10/16/07 07:24 PM)
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I'M TIRED OF NOBODY UNDERSTANDING. OF ALWAYS HAVING TO EXPLAIN MYSELF. OF ALWAYS BEING THE ONE WHO IS SICK AND THE ONE WHO DISRUPTS TRIPS BECAUSE I NEED TO FIND A BATHROOM. I'M TIRED OF BEING ANXIOUS ALL THE TIME ABOUT WHAT MY STOMACH MIGHT DO. I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME TO NOT THINK ABOUT IT SO MUCH. I'M TIRED OF NOT HAVING ANY TRUE FRIENDS. I'M TIRED OF BEING TOLD "YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO EAT THAT." I'M TIRED OF FEELING ALONE. I'M TIRED OF BEING SCARED. I'M TIRED OF BEING AFRAID THAT I WILL HAVE AN ATTACK THAT WILL CAUSE A MOST EMBARRASING MOMENT. I'M TIRED OF INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE. I'M TIRED OF BEING MISSUNDERSTOOD. I'M TIRED OF NEVER BEING INVITED TO DO ANYTHING OTHER THAN WITH MY HUSBAND. I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS DOING WHAT OTHERS WANT ME TO DO, BUT NOBODY DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO. I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS GIVING IN. I'M TIRED OF CARING ABOUT OTHERS, BUT NOT GETTING THE SAME IN RETURN. I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS TRYING SO HARD AND NEVER GETTING ANYWHERE. I'M TIRED OF NOT BEING ABLE TO ADEQUATELY EXPRESS MY TRUE FEELINGS IN SPOKEN WORDS. I'M TIRED OF EVERYTHING! IF I WERE TO DIE TODAY....WOULD I COME BACK AS ANOTHER PERSON WITH IBS? I WANT TO COME BACK AS A DOG WITH A GOOD HOME. I WANT TO BE TREATED WITH THE SAME RESPECT I GIVE OTHERS. I WANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD. I'M TIRED OF FEELING LIKE WHEN I'M NEEDED I'M ALWAYS THERE, BUT WHEN I NEED SOMEONE, I DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT THAT THEY WILL BE THERE. I MISS MY UNCLE AND MY GRANDMOTHER. THEY WERE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEEDED THEM. WITHOUT QUESTION.
sorry for rambling....thanks for listening....
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I'M TIRED! I'M FRUSTRATED! I WANT ALL OF MY IBS ONLINE FRIENDS TO GET BETTER! I WANT US TO TAKE VACATIONS, GO ON OUTINGS WITH COWORKERS, FAMILY AND FRIENDS WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT GETTING SICK OR WORRYING ABOUT THE INITIAL FEELING OF WORRYING ABOUT GETTING SICK! I'M TIRED OF US FEELING BLOATED OR HAVING OUR BUTTS READY TO EXPLODE AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT! I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING NAUSEA AND BEING LIGHTHEADED! I'M TIRED OF US HAVING TO ENDURE POSSIBLE HUMILIATION AND HELPLESSNESS! I'M TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED!
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Wendy IBS A thru Z 
Taking it one day at a time...
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I'M TIRED OF MY STOMACH TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE. I'M SICK OF BEING SICK, AND SICK OF WATCHING EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME LIVING THE LIFE THEY WANT AND ME NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THAT. I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS AT A BAR, HAVE A DRINK, AND NOT WORRY ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES FOR MY IBS. I WANT TO NOT HAVE SUCH BAD GAS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET UP THE COURAGE TO DATE SOMEONE. I FEEL AS IF I WILL NEVER GET MARRIED, HAVE CHILDREN, AND THE FAMILY I WANT BECAUSE OF MY IBS. I AM TIRED OF THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO HAVE ACTUALLY HAD THIS DISORDER TELLING ME THAT IT WILL "GO AWAY"...BECAUSE I DON'T BELIEVE THEM. I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD, AND EAT EXOTIC AND UNIQUE FOOD FROM DIFFERENT PLACES WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT WHERE THE NEAREST BATHROOM IS. I AM TIRED OF EATING THE SAME FOOD BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF TRYING SOMETHING NEW. I WANT TO PLAY SPORTS AND RUN LIKE I USED TO WITHOUT MY STOMACH BEING A FACTOR -- IF I WANT TO RUN 13 DARN MILES THEN I WILL DO IT AND SAY "SCREW YOU, STOMACH!" I DON'T WANT TO BE NORMAL...I JUST WANT TO LIVE THE CAREFREE, HAPPY, FULFILLED LIFE I HAD BEFORE IBS.
Thank you so much, I have needed to vent for a while now.
Julie
IBS-D, GERD, lactose intolerant
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"We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."
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I know this was written a while ago, but just wanted to say...
I think most people either lose a lot of weight or gain a lot of weight when they first get IBS (or both)... it seems like however un-ideal, that would make sense...
Hope you are coping
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