OK - leery about posting this, but here it is....
#304018 - 04/04/07 08:20 PM
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For those of you who know me, I have removed my personal information for a reason. So, please address me as A or Yoda. Do not use my real name. I would hate for anyone who knows me where I live to figure this one out.
My husband is leaving me for another woman. He's been having an on-off affair for over a year and a half now. He told me the first 2 times, and then caught him the third time (back in Jan when I posted about a rough time). No matter what I say or do, he is determined to do this. The stupid thing is that ours was a good marriage, mostly happy, though my mental illnesses have put us few a few rough years recently, but I am totally stable now, thank you very much. I suffered over a year of postpartum depression (for months after each child), got diagnosed with OCD and Bipolar all overlapping within a 3 year timespan WHILE looking after babies. He still loves me, yet says he can't live without her (gag me!). It's totally insane and I have talked till I'm blue in the face but it's like talking to a brick wall. The good man I married is GONE. What's left is this evil, lying, manipulating, cheating DEVIL who would rather have a sl!! than me. Not that I have an ego or anything, but I am a good person, I like to believe.
I am doing really well - REALLY. My bipolar has not faltered during all this crap. I am NOT depressed, and have no intention of giving them the satisfaction of getting the better of me. And, yes, I have 2 small children, 3 and 5 years. I'm terrified for them - but I will be there for them no matter what. They can always count on me. So far, things are extremely civil and downright reasonable - my STBX is being very generous about helping me get set financially before the legal stuff comes into play. He has even bought some new appliances so that I don't worry about the old ones crapping out and my having to buy new.
I pray every day. Thanks to Rachel (Poochibelly) and Shan (Willow), I am hanging on to the idea that God has a plan and a path for me, and that all I need do is have faith and put one foot in front of the other. I am already to the point where I no longer hurt every second of the day. I am making changes for me -
Shelley - you'll be so proud! I'M TAKING KARATE!!!!!!! AND, I'm signing up for a "Biggest Loser" challenge at the gym. I've already lost 15 lbs, and have an amazing support network of fam and friends. Most are amazed at how well I am doing.
So, despite all that, I appreciate all the hugs and prayers possible. For all of you who have supported me through all this, my eternal love and thanks. I love you all!
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Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.
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I love you girl...and yes, I'M so very proud of you!! Keep it up.... you and your kids should be your only concern.... he has made his bed... may he find bugs in it!!  hehehe Sorry could not help it!! 
Stay strong.... you are an amazing person.... HIS LOSS!!
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You seem like a smart, strong woman and I know that you will be able to take care of yourself and your children. I also believe that there is a plan and a reason for everything, though it can be impossible to see at times. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I know what it likes to have someone you love become a different (and very cruel in my case) person. It's not your fault and you don't deserve it. Stay strong.
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If you're not dead, you've still got time.
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even your husband and the other woman ,that's a hard thing to get around but Jesus said pray for your enemies (I know it sounds strong calling your husband an enemy but he has definitley hurt you and done you wrong) I think the main reason is otherwise it is soooo easy to get caught up in bitterness and unforgiveness when someone hurts you.
you're an inspiration to so many people here, a real blessing
xxx
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It really sounds like you are going into this with the right attitude an doing what is best for you and the kids despite his garbage.
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Dietetics Student (anticipating RD exam in Aug 2010)
IBS - A
Dairy Allergic
Fructose and MSG intollerant
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Oh Yoda!! You definately deserve better!! What a statement - can't live without her!!
I hope that God does have a different plan for you and your children. I'm short of advice for something like this, but I'm here if you need me!!
Keep up the good work on the weight loss!! 15lbs!! Way to go!
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Cassandra
Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like you've never loved before.
IBS A 20+ years, Chronic Migraines, Chiari Malformation (decompressed June 22, 2010), Brachial Neuritis, and ??? the list just keeps growing, but I'm still shiny side up!
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Oh, I'm so sorry. I have been in similar shoes. I can tell you though that someday you will look back on this as a blessing in disguise. You may deal with some hard times, some real turmoil but things will even out and you will be fine....better than fine. You will find out how strong you can be; for you and for your kids. You will find out that you are better off without him. And although it is way to early to think about it, another love (a better love) may be around the corner.
I was divorced in 2001 (separated one week after 9/11) and felt like my life was over. I moved in with my parents. My kids were 2 and 5 1/2. I went through a full year of hell and another 2 with real challenges. But they made me so strong. Now, I am well-adjusted (as are my children)with a loving husband of almost 2 years and I thank my lucky stars for him everyday.
I'm not suggesting that another man will make it all better. But you will see, the longer you two are apart, that there were things that weren't right in your marriage. I have faith in you. You're a strong woman. This WILL get better. Just keep that in mind as you hit some hard times. It WILL get better.
Big hugs for you Yoda. BIG hugs.
Lauren
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Flipada - IBS-C "It's a gas, gas, gas"
**Lauren**
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I am so proud of you for staying so strong. You are such a wonderful person and I have been praying for you to get through this horrible time in your life. If you ever want to talk you can e-mail me anytime. Hang in there sweetie! God does have a plan for you!
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I agree, you are being very strong and we are all proud of you. I know this is an awful time but things will get better. Love and hugs
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I'm so sorry to hear this. It's great you're hanging in there, staying strong, and getting on with your life.
And I'll give you my standard advice: STBX's may be reasonable today but they don't always stay that way. Get a really, really good lawyer.
Take very good care.
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