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Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental???
      #280875 - 09/05/06 08:57 AM
michele

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Well, the weekend was awful. All I did was move from bed to couch and back again. I lost 4 pounds in three days. I can't eat, even plain rice feels like razor blades and I'm hardly able to drink.

I've been complaining to the doctors about this pain I've been having up high, like just under my boobs and a tad to the right. They keep saying its reflux and not to worry. Well, its to the critical mass state and hurts like hell. I also have terrible, sharp pains real low and to the right, like just above my pubic hair line. My tummy looks about 6 months pregnant. I'm weak, dizzy, nauseous and in pain.

I saw the crohns guy this am and what a waste of time. He poked and prodded until I was crying and said he doesn't think its a perforation or anything serious. He set up an appt for next Wednesday for a consult on an upper endoscopy. I told him if they can't find anything definite wrong with me than its got to be in my head and to please admitt me to the psych ward because I can't take anymore and even though I was sobbing when I said it, I don't think he took me serious. I WAS serious.

I am sitting at my desk, hunch over in pain, trying not to have a complete meltdown in public. I have an appt to see my internist at 1pm, than I have to come back to work for the rest of the afternoon. I hope she has some better answers.

I swear, I'm the sickest healthy person in the world. I've been to more specialist than I can count and have some vague diagnoses but no one can tell me whats wrong. Can depression cause this amount of PHYSICAL pain?

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Re: Not at all. At least no more than most.... new
      #280889 - 09/05/06 09:25 AM
Yoda (formerly Hans)

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It has been proven that mental depression CAN in fact cause physical pain. It's relatively a new phenomena which isn't often talked about because most people don't take it seriously. I'm not saying that you're making it up, either. The pain is VERY real. It can be caused by depression or as a symptom of some other problem. So, no, you're not nuts.
Chin up my love,
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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280891 - 09/05/06 09:34 AM
lj

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Michele,

No I don't think you are mental. I think there is something definitely wrong and they have not been able to pinpoint it yet. I was watching a show called Mystery Diagnosis last Saturday. It's about people who have a lot of trouble being diagnosed. Most end up thinking it is all in their heads or must be because the doctors have no answers. This particular show was about a woman with Bechet's disease. It took her about 17 years to be diagnosed. I am telling you about it because some of the problems she had were the same as ones you have talked about including uveitits and iritis as well as a long list of ohter symptoms. It's probably a longshot, but I knew I had to let you know about it just in case you had not looked into this one yet. I hope your appointment yields some answers.

Laura

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You are sick-- why can't they see that? new
      #280896 - 09/05/06 10:01 AM
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If you're mental I'm mental too. I'd be glad to visit you in the psych ward. Maybe we can get a double room.

I'm having a hard time starting and stopping meds. I fired one of my doctors a couple of weeks ago and with that went cold turkey off of no fewer than 3 meds. The physical pain from the meds and my symptoms coming back all at once was so bad, I quit my 9-5 job. I know where you are right now, and it's not a nice place to be.

I think you should take some time off from your job and check yourself into the hospital until they can figure out what's wrong (or you feel better enough to check yourself out). I did this when I was 19 and spent some time in the hospital until I was strong enough to be on my own. This was before I had my IBS diagnosis-- I was severly underweight, having seizures and my hair was coming out big time. Even so, I had to MAKE them check me in. I know it can be done.

At least with the constant care I was #1 taken seriously and #2 had some peace of mind that a doctor was reviewing my case daily. As soon as doctors started working on me full time, I had peace of mind. There's nothing so empty as feeling as you're not being taken seriously. I know you know what I mean.

That being said, I know you are probably not in a position to leave work. But it might be an investment in the Rest of Your Life. Please weigh the consequences (misery, depression, feelings of worthlessness). I wouldn't wish this feeling on my worst enemy. {{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}

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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280897 - 09/05/06 10:06 AM
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Quote:

Can depression cause this amount of PHYSICAL pain?




No!!

OK, so I know that depression can have physical symptoms ... but how can depression cause you to produce that much inflammation in your body? Or joint damage? I just don't think it's possible. Being sick is exhausting and soul-destroying and can definitely make you depressed -- but I don't think being depressed can make anyone as sick as you are.

I'm so sorry how awful you're feeling -- I was hoping the Humira would help longer. Is it possible that the Humira is aggravating your reflux? I've had really awful reflux that was incredibly painful and made me vomit, so it's still possible that it's reflux.

The pain you're having down low sounds like it could be an ovary. Maybe you have a cyst that ruptured?

I'm so sorry you feel so awful, Michele. I hope your internist can help.

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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280901 - 09/05/06 10:30 AM
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I really wish I could say something magical to cheer you up, but I just don't know what that would be. And I'm usually good with words...

I wish I could just give you a big hug. Don't know what else to do. A cyber hug isn't really the same but since I don't have "Mr Tickle arms" that's the best I can do right now.


You are always in my prayers!


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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280909 - 09/05/06 10:56 AM
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I'm so sorry you are so sick, Michele. I wish there was something I could do for you. Here's some hugs {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280928 - 09/05/06 12:37 PM
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I'm sorry you're so sick. That's terrible that you're in so much pain.

BIG HUGS, know that we're all on your side, I hope your docs can come to a conclusion for you.



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Re: Room in psych ward for me too??? new
      #280931 - 09/05/06 12:51 PM
Yoda (formerly Hans)

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Can I join you? Pain is a symptom. There's a CAUSE for it. Plain and simple. Stick to your guns. There has got to be a reason for all this honey!
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I say we all book a wing new
      #280932 - 09/05/06 12:53 PM
Nelly

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Only crazy people invited.

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I'm sooooo there! new
      #280937 - 09/05/06 01:59 PM
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Book a wing and I'll be there! So sorry Michele. You don't ever have much relief before it gets bad again, do you? That's just awful. I almost feel bad for saying that I'm doing really well physically right now. I'm wishing for some of the same for you, hon!

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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #280956 - 09/05/06 06:31 PM
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I have had similar pain (under the boobs, on the right) and then it travels down above the pubic bone...sometimes in my back. I have been told by some nurses I know that it could be gall bladder related. Do you have nausea all day, or just at certain times? I see a GI on Sept 12 to find out. I can empathize with your frustration! It's sooooo annoying to not have any definitive answers. Sounds like the depression is a symptom of your physical pain. I know I feel depressed because I just want to be healthy! Especially when you are young, and just want to feel "normal". I don't know your other health concerns but I wish you strength....

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You know what they say, if your poor your crazy if your rich, excentric nt new
      #280957 - 09/05/06 06:34 PM
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Michele - are you OK? new
      #281004 - 09/06/06 08:04 AM
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I thought you'd post after your appt yesterday ... I hope everything is OK.

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Re: Update, er visit new
      #281018 - 09/06/06 09:48 AM
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Oh boy-my internist took one look at me and sent me to the hospital. She wanted to rule out pulmonary embolism, a really nasty blood clot. I feel like the walking dead today but the overall summary goes a little like this

-Internist said blood pressure was 180/126 and pulse was over 150, I was dehydrated and look terrible (gee, you think?)
-call boss, he asked if I could wait until after work to go to hospital, umm NOOOOO!
-Drive myself to er
-Got to pass a long line of people and got an ekg
they decided I wasn't dying at the moment so shipped me back to a different department
-FIVE needle pokes later, get IV
_no less than 4 docs poke at my tummy and seem fascinated when I rithe in pain
-finally get pain shot of diladid

Fast forward about 8 hours
-ended up soaking up 4 bags of saline
-2 chest x-rays, 2 abdominal x-rays
-drink two glass of crappy tasting contrast stuff for cat scan
-lay in strecther in hallway because no rooms available
-No less than 8 cranky, pissed off nurses and one really nice, cute one!
-ended up with 3 diladid shots, two tordal and one phenegrahn to keep it all down
-Get abdominal cat scan, looks ok but of course takes hours to find that out
-have nasty, explosive d and the bathroom at hospital is GROSS
-released at 10:30 pm with a script for zantac and percocet
-probably severe gastritis or ulcer-nothing they can do for either
-follow up with consult with gi guy next Wednesday for upper endoscopy, not sure how long it will actually take to get the endoscopy??

So, loads of fun, arms look like a junkie, feel like walking dead and look oh so lovely in greasy ponytail and no make-up. Managed to come in because boss was here this am but will be leaving very soon to go home and crawl in bed.

The humira IS helping with my joint pain and swelling. Its not all gone but it is improving. It also seems the D stops for a couple of days after the shot. Due for shot tomorrow and D is back in full force, despite having eaten next to nothing since Friday.

Forgive my ramblings, way too much drug in my system, shouldn't be conscious.

Still haven't ruled out a visit to the psych ward yet. Asked the internist yesterday and she said lets ruled out everything else first!

Thanks for every ones responses. I did read them all, forgive me for not replying, as she drools on keyboard, can't think straight-must go home.



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Re:OMG - Michele! You poor poor thing! new
      #281037 - 09/06/06 11:33 AM
Yoda (formerly Hans)

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Aww, sweetheart! Sending you tons of hugs. I'm so sorry you're going through all this.
XOXOXOXOXO
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Re: Update, er visit new
      #281040 - 09/06/06 12:20 PM
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Oh, wow. I guess I'm glad that you don't have a nasty blood clot, but at the same time I wish they could've helped you more.

Percocet always stops me up (in fact, I've actually taken it on occasion solely to end a horrid D attack), so while you're taking it maybe it'll help with the D.

OK, and I know you probably don't want to do it, but ... maybe you need to ask the GI guy if you can have a colonoscopy done at the same time as the endoscopy. If you think you'll have to have both done eventually anyway, it's a lot easier to get both of them out of the way at the same time. And maybe they'll see something to give you a definitive answer. I know the prep is unpleasant (I've had to do bowel preps four times in the last two years), but it's better than ... um ... sticking yourself in the eye with a flaming torch.

I hope you did get to go home early and got some rest. Take care.

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Re: Update, er visit new
      #281062 - 09/06/06 02:06 PM
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I know there is nothing I can say to help you feel better. But like everyone else, you're in my thoughts and I wish the best for you.

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Ugh...I'm so sorry! new
      #281065 - 09/06/06 02:16 PM
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Ugh, I'm so sorry you have to go through all that. Still sending well wishes your way. Big hugs.

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Wow Michele! new
      #281069 - 09/06/06 03:18 PM
Nelly

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{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS!!!}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Enjoy the percocet. It does wonders for D. I wish I had saline IVs at home. It'd save a trip to the bed in the hallway in the hospital, at least.

{{{HUGS AGAIN}}}}}

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So sorry, Michele! new
      #281081 - 09/06/06 04:40 PM
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Even though I haven't been posting very often, I have been checking in and following your posts. Just wanted to say how sorry I am that you have to go through all this and you are definitely one of the strongest people I know - even if you don't think so yourself. Hang in there and things will eventually get better.

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I'm coming too!! new
      #281089 - 09/06/06 06:50 PM
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Michelle,
I'll join you in the psych ward, along with everyone else.

Sweetheart, I was in tears reading how bad you are feeling after this weekend compared to last! And then the er and the hosp stay - it's just too much! Your poor body and soul are being torn apart and the drs don't even know why!! I wish had you a reason or a diagnosis for being so ill, it's just too much for you!!

Sending you big hugs, cause it's all I can do to help.

Cassandra

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read up and let me know michele new
      #281109 - 09/06/06 08:58 PM
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try reading up on serrapeptase, it might help you out, at worst it does nothing, please look it up tell me`what you think, seen lots of people at the store i work at have amazing results with all kinds of inflammation and pain, its an enzyme so its easy on tummy.

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Re:Thanks everyone new
      #281133 - 09/07/06 07:24 AM
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I went home and napped on the couch all afternoon. I got a good nights sleep, thanks to a handful of pills . I'm at work and trying to nibble some low fat graham crackers. The pain is constant, doesn't seem to matter what I do or don't eat. The percocet helps everything else but doesn't help the pain in my chest or wherever they want to call it.

I'm going to keep my appt with the gi guy next Wednesday and I will ask about doing both scopes at the same time. AS much as I hate the thought of the prep, I might as well get it over with. After that though, I'm done. If they don't find an answer, I'm just going to take a break from doctors. I'll keep my follow up with the rheumy in October because the humira IS helping my joint pain but otherwise, I need a break. I'm tired of being poked and prodded and hearing we don't know.

I figure one of two things will happen, if its an ulcer or gastritis or whatever, it'll heal up on its own in time. I'll keep taking the reflux meds but otherwise there isn't anything they can do for those conditions anyways. The other thing that could happen would be whatever IT is will get way worse and then there won't be a doubt as to whats wrong and we can cut right to the answer. But I've had almost 3 years of medical issues and I'm just DONE. I need a break. I'll give it 3-6 months and see how things are then. If nothing has improved, than I'll consider the expense of something like the Mayo clinic.

Thanks for everyones continued support. I'm sure you are all tired of my medical drama but I do appriciate being able to come here and vent and get such wonderful support. Love and hugs to all!

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Re: I'm coming too!! new
      #281134 - 09/07/06 07:27 AM
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Thanks toady. You summed it up very well. "Your poor body and soul are being torn apart and the drs don't even know why!!" Thata exactly how I feel. The hugs are much appriciated.

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Re:Thanks everyone new
      #281141 - 09/07/06 07:45 AM
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Sounds like a good plan and a much needed break. Maybe it will help you mentally. Constantly searching and wondering and worrying will make anyone feel sick. I know when I was trying this and that and getting this and that test done I drove myself crazy. I finally took a break and said the Dr. isn't helping me. I stopped trying every little supplement, pill, etc. And I feel a lot better. Just keep it simple. Hope you start feeling better and that your body will heal on it's own!

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Re: Michele - question new
      #281153 - 09/07/06 08:20 AM
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I'm sorry to hear about what a rough time you're having! That's terrible! I was hoping you'd be feeling much better by now.

Are you having any fevers in addition to the high blood pressure when you have these attacks? I'm just wondering because I have a friend who was really sick for months and had pain similar to yours - upper right instead of lower right - it ended up being her appendix was leaking. Because she had other health issues (overweight), she was just chronically sick, rather than the acute symptoms of appendicitis, and doctors overlooked this possiblity until they were doing exploratory surgery. I'm not saying that's what you have, but could it be that Crohn's is affecting your appendix? Plus, you're on steroids, which can affect the presence of those symptoms used to diagnose another problem.

Take care. I'm thinking of you!

Edited by Maria!Maria! (09/07/06 09:03 AM)

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      #281164 - 09/07/06 08:44 AM
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I am so sorry for everything you are going through right now sweetie! I haven't been on much being back to work and being completely overwhelmed! But I did read through your post today and wanted to tell you that I am thinking of you and really hope they find answers. I will continue to keep you in my prayers and I know it may not seem like it but I know that you can hang in there. There has to be some sunshine in your dark clouds right now. Maybe we can try to get together on a weekend if you are feeling up to it. Let me know! Call if you want to talk. I am avaiable after 4pm!!! Love ya!

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Re:Thanks everyone new
      #281168 - 09/07/06 08:56 AM
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I'm so sorry all this has happened. I really hope your internist can figure out what's going on - it sounds like at least she's taking you seriously. If it is an ulcer, I think that can be treated, at least if it's caused by H. pylori - I'll keep my fingers crossed it's something straightforward like that.

I feel kind of stupid even suggesting this - diagnosis from television - but there was a "House" episode where a woman had some pretty serious symptoms partly as a result of her birth control pills. I think you said in another thread that you were taking BC. Have you considered going off them and seeing if you feel better?

Obviously the scopes need to be done, but after that a medical break might be the best thing if your body will leave you in peace enough to take one. I hope it does.

Take care.

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Re: Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental??? new
      #281190 - 09/07/06 11:06 AM
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Hi Michele,

Gee, your pains sound just like the pains I was having in July that finally sent me to the emergency room. I was a mass of pain from under my boobs to the bottom of my tush and looked like I had swallowed a watermelon or two. My blood pressure was elevated (I think because of the pain). I was dehydrated and so thirsty I couldn't stop drinking water. Things were going well with a very sympathetic triage nurse and nice admitting clerk, but then the ambulances started to arrive and superceded my getting a bed. So I sat in the ER for a few hours holding my belly and moaning. I had some vicodin with me and so I was able to take the edge off the pain.Finally I was taken back and given a bed in a curtained cubicle. The ER was packed with patients in beds lined up against the walls. The ER doc was not too nice. I had too many complaints, too many pains. I was to pick just one spot. So I picked the under the boobs area. I too was given the lovely pina colada cocktail and CT scan. Meanwhile I was infused with saline and given dilaudid ( a most wonderful drug) for pain. The CT scan was negative and all I got out of my hours in ER was a facilitated appointment with a gastroenterologist for the next week. Hey, that was pretty good. Usually takes a month or two.

Fast forward a week.
My belly now looked liked I had swallowed the entire produce section. The pain was unrelenting. My blood pressure soared into the 190s.An article appeared in the Sunday LA Times Magazine about rare diseases. My husband decided I fit the profile for acute intermittent porphyria which can be caused about by a reaction to anti seizure medications. I had been taking trileptal and then topomax since June when my symptoms first began. He agreed to go with me to the gastro guy and mention this. Instinctively I knew that suggesting something to a specialist was not a good idea. More on this later.

Appointment with GI. He took one look at my belly and decided I needed to be in the hospital. I was so grateful that someone took me seriously that I began to cry. Bad move. You become known as a hysterical female. This I found out later. Hubby mentioned the rare disorder. The GI didn't outright dismiss it but thought an obstruction was more likely. I was x rayed, CT scanned and scoped up and down. During the clean out for the colonoscopy massive amounts of poop came out. Meanwhile he ordered a 24 hour urine collection to test for the porphyria. I was still in a lot of pain. My blood pressure wasn't coming down and so they started me on medication to lower it.

Day 3 in the hospital. Enter the GI. He had a strange gleam in his eye. From the kind compassionate doctor he had been a new personna emerged. He was waving the pictures from my scopes and announced: "It is irritable bowel, nothing but irritable bowel and for that the only cure is fiber, fiber and more fiber. " He handed me the pictures. In addition to IBS, I also had a hiatal hernia, GERD and gastritis (hence the upper pain) and a rectal prolapse which he said was caused by constipation. I mentioned that I had been having more D than C and he said that the D was breakthrough and that I had actually had a fecal impaction. He did say the prolapse needed to be taken care of and he'd send a surgeon by to discuss it with me. He then sailed away. A few hours later he called the hospital to tell then to discharge me after the 24 hour urine collection was finished (10:30 PM) and to discontinue the dilaudid. I was floored. He was discharging me in the middle of the night - I was being catherized so I would have to urinate on my own before they could dismiss me - plus he was just abruptly terminating pain control. I didn't know what I had done to make him switch. I think it was suggesting the porphyria but after talking to my nurse, she said he is that way. He is a very good gastroenterologist but he is very moody. Also he was going on vacation but she said that if I needed to stay in the hospital she would call him in the middle of the night. At that point I just wanted out.

The surgeon came and from what I can remember he said that he hoped I didn't have to have surgery as it was not pleasant and that maybe it could be managed medically by keeping the stool soft. I really don't remember much of that as I was in shock from the switch in the GI's demeanor, the mere thought of surgery and the dilaudid.

My discharge instructions said I was to follow up with the surgeon and the GI. When I went to see the surgeon, he said why are you here. Your prolapse isn't too bad and you don't need surgery. But when I went to see the GI he said I definitely needed surgery and I was to see a colorectal surgeon at USC. He also explained how I could be constipated and have diarrhea at the same time. During the IBS spasms, the colon clamps down and narrows so that normal stool cannot get through. The stool backs up behind the restricted colon but some breaks through as diarrhea. Several of the meds I had been taking caused constipation as did my hypothyroidism. I''ve discontinued some of the meds and my new internist is supposed to be checking my thyroid more often as I had gone hypo before this bout.So that is where I stand now.

Am I under control. NO. Am I better. Yes. Finally. The upper pain is controlled by Protonex. I had been taking prevacid. He said in a couple of years I'll probably have to switch to something else. For the IBS I take benefiber but have to be cautious as too much causes too much gas and bloat, mirilax when needed , imodium when I absolutely must (if I have to do something and am having D- then I get C for a few days) bentyl for spasms when needed, gas x. The bloat and gas is still bad but at least I am not spending half the day in the bathroom or in bed with the heating pad. And I do take vicodin (hush, hush the docs really don't like that) when needed so I can function. Narcotic pain meds are constipating however so I have to be careful. But they can be so helpful and it is better to function with them than lie in bed rolled up into a ball.

Sorry this is so long. I'm rather new to the boards and have been reading the posts but haven't posted much. I just wanted to let you know that I really empathize with you. I hope you start feeling better. Wouldn't it be nice if we would be treated with kindness and understanding rather than scorn and dismissal? And I don't think you are mental.



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      #281214 - 09/07/06 01:06 PM
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Thanks for your post. I'm sorry you have been through so much but parts of your story made me laugh-the whole thing about swallowing the whole produce section-boy, can I relate!

All this would be much more tolerable if only the dr's weren't such asses about it all. Sorry for the language but thats the only word that fits!

I know I do have IBS, have had for over 18 years, I'm 36 but all this other stuff is relatively new. I used to be SO C, took at least once dose of miralax a day for years. This spring, it overnight changed to explosive, high velocity D, sometimes up to 20 times a day!

This higher up pain is new. I had similar pain back in June. Actually threw up blood, passed out and went to er in ambulance! They said good ole fashion gastritis. And yes, the dilaudid is heaven for the pain! To bad we can't get that to go! I've got vicodin and percocet right now for the pain but they don't help this gastritis or whatever it is. I've got some darvocet also but that doesn't do anything at all. Even taking all the narcotics, I still have D!

I've been on prescription reflux meds for a long while now and just switched to aciphex and added zantac as well so hopefully that will help.

I had my gallbladder removed bout 7 years ago and I've been reading that sometimes you can get a dysfunction of the sphincter that can cause this pain. I guess the proper name is sphincter of oddi dysfunction, anyone ever heard of it??

The humira is helping a lot with the joint pain and swelling, so I think we are on the right track there. The dr's insist that my 7.5 mg dose of daily steroids aren't causing my gi issues but I'm not so sure. However, every time i try to decrease the dose, the swelling and pain are unbearable.

Hopefully the gi guy I see next Wednesday will be at least a little kind and maybe even have some answers.

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      #281217 - 09/07/06 01:13 PM
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My temp runs between 98-100 so no real fever. They did mention something about the appendix at the er but for some reason they ruled it out. This newer pain, up high, is a constant pain, not what I would call attacks. Eating hurts, feels like shards of glass and I'm full after a bit or two and very nausous.

I'm also still overweight, mostly from the miscarriages and fertility treatments. When I lost the twins in December I was 199 pounds. I'm down to 174 but at 5'8, its still heavy. Its funny how when you tell the dr's you've lost weight and can't eat, they are not concerned unless you LOOK gaunt. I need to lose weight but this isn't a good way to do it. The docs are rather amused though after they find out I've been on steroids for months and still losing weight as steroids cause massive weight gain. My face is rounding out a lot, what they call moon face but my glands are also swollen so hard to tell whats what there.

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      #281220 - 09/07/06 01:17 PM
michele

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Thanks. They ruled out the h pylori thing back in February. I asked the internist yesterday IF it is an ulcer what else could they do for me and she said I'm already on the right medications and it just takes time to heal.

I am currently on bc pills, not that I'm well enough to even have sex but I'd rather not deal with my periods. Since my last miscarriage last December, my periods have been just awful. I didn't go on the pill until about 8 weeks ago or so, so I doubt they are the cause but I appreciate the suggestion. I had been on them for YEARS before we tried to get pregnant as well and never had any problems. By the way, House is one of my favorite shows!! I missed the season opener because I was in the hospital, did you see it?

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      #281240 - 09/07/06 03:10 PM
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Yes, I saw the House season premiere - and I have it on tape. If you want it, drop me an email (my email address is in my profile) and I'll mail it to you.

Well, phooey about the h. pylori. Sometimes life is just not simple. I'll still hope the scopes find something straightforward - and fixable!

Take care.



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Re: Update, er visit new
      #281251 - 09/07/06 05:57 PM
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Oh sweetie,

I am so sorry that you are going through all of this and that you feel so bad. I can't believe that these docs still haven't found what is wrong with you so they can treat it properly. I keep hoping that someone will find out what is wrong soon.

You are so brave and strong and you have been through so much. I continue to be amazed by your courage. And, you manage to go to work every day even when you feel terrible and you are in pain.

Lots of love and hugs. I'll keep praying for you.



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      #281269 - 09/07/06 09:36 PM
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Michele,

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}

I just want to say that I admire your strength and resolve. I admire your willingness to explore any and every avenue to return to wellness.

I hope you start to feel well again soon!

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Re: Update, er visit new
      #281285 - 09/08/06 06:49 AM
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THanks Janey. I did take a little time off this week. Was in the hospital Tuesday and only worked 3 hours on Wednesday. Doing the bare minimum but I'm here, TGIF!

I hope your new job is still going well!

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      #281287 - 09/08/06 07:15 AM
michele

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Well, its Friday, for a short work week, this has been a REALLY long week!

I did my humira shot last night with the new fangled turbo injector pen, pretty cool! It still stings like the devil but its pretty idiot proof and you don't even see the needle so it'll be good for the needle phobes out there. So, other than my high up pain and some run of the mill bloating and moderate ibs pain, I don't feel awful. It seems the first day or two after my shot, I feel better and the D stops so hopefully the more I do the shots, the better I will feel for longer.

Well, the boss is in and we have patients all day so I won't have a lot of time on line but I'll try to catch up on posts later this afternoon.

Looking forward to just relaxing this weekend and hopefully feeling better!

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      #281297 - 09/08/06 08:06 AM
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Hi there!

Hope you'll have a good weekend (can't be much worse than last one I guess ). Hope the Humira effect will stay ALL weekend this time so you can get some rest and hopefully do something fun too. And play with the boys of course.


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Re: Once again stumped & humbled by how tough you are new
      #281390 - 09/08/06 09:24 PM
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For once I've not got the words. You're so brave & strong, and you make so many of us feel so much braver and stronger too, it's SO unfair. (Trying REALLY hard not to swear or use phrases that people might take offence too - that's how wound up this gets me! )

You'd think doctors just had to do some 6 week high school course by how stumped they all are! It's utterly unbelievable, and the fact all you guys over there are constantly having to pay for health care is just diabolical, and makes it so much worse.

If there was something I could do sweetheart, I seriously would. No advice, because you no more than the rest of us put together, but keep fighting girl, it HAS to get better

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      #281864 - 09/12/06 02:24 PM
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My doctor use to roll his eyes and pat me on the knee in a most infuriating manner when I spoke of my pains. Once I straightened out with the info in Heather's book I changed doctors but did send the old one a copy of the book. Perhaps it will come in handy with his next patient.

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      #282008 - 09/13/06 11:05 AM
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Ugh, I hate when doctors are so condescending. Hopefully, like you said, Heathers info will help with the next patient!!

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