Something I want to share...hope it's ok...
#171588 - 04/19/05 05:06 PM
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Hi all,
I haven't written in so long. But I decided to get back into it. As I m a religious Jew I do not sing for men...but I DO for women!
Let me know what you guys think...is this something I should pursue? PLEASE be honest....
Also...please tell me if anything is too graphic/violent.
Thanks! Love, Ruch
FILLED WITH LOVE
I have a soul
I have a heart
I have a hole
An empty space
Where you touched me
Where you hurt me
Where you killed me
I have a soul
I have a heart
I have a hole
An empty space
Where you choked me
Where you damaged me
Where you used me
I have a soul
I have a heart
I have a hope
A new space
Where I left you
Where I left you
Where I left you
I have a soul
I have a heart
I have a hope
A beautiful space
Where I love me
Where I love me
Where I love me
I have a soul
A wonderful soul
A beautiful soul
I have a heart
A strong heart
A full heart
I had a hole
But it is full now
So very full now
A lovely space
Filled with love
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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I think it's absolutely beautiful. You have *the* knack for poetry... like me  . I'm a poet, too, but I haven't written in oh so long.
Yes, pursue it. It's beautiful.
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Elizabeth
all those years it wasn't IBS - it was celiac!
send me an email: liz@dopple.net
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Ruchie it that is so beautiful! Of course pursue it. It takes alot of guts sharing something that comes from the inside with others, so good for you! If you have anything else that you would like to share, I would love to see it, either on the boards or in my inbox!
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-Sheri
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I agree, it's wonderful. Go ahead with it! Wow, it's great (I'm the worst poet in the world  )
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Amy
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Rache, you can do ANYTHING you want to. I love reading your poems! YAY!!!!   
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I also support you Ruchie! I think when you write it really comes from your heart and that is whats important!
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Taking it one day at a time.....
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I wish I could write like this! It's beautiful!
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Michelle
IBS-A, pain predominant
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I was so afraid it was inappropriate to post this here...and after I sent it i kept thinking "It's NOT that good...!"
Thank you all for supporting me. Right now...you're all literally my lifeline. I don't have my parents support (obviously as they knew I was being abused and did nothing about it--for years!) and I don't have friends in the community.
G-d bless Heather and all of you on these boards!
With love and gratitude,
Ruch
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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It very pretty.but you sound so sad.
Gerry10
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Neta G.Yale
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Hi Gerry,
I AM sad.
I am learning that since I was a CHILD I have been pushing down the abuse and the memories and blaming myself in order to survive. I am finally safe enough with my husband to remember what happened to accept that it was not my fault that I was ABUSED and that my paretns neglected to do anything about it.
This is a VERY difficult time for me. But I am storng, I am a survivor, and I wil get through it. I need to let it all out though in order to get on with my life.
I WAS a victim. But now I am a SURVIVOR. And that makes all the difference in the world!
Send me lots of hugs...cause it's a painful road I'm travelin'
Lots of love, Ruch
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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I have a question...why is it that you think this is beautiful? I'm not sure I see the beauty in it
I'm sooo thankful for these boards! That I can share this here...and not lose you guys as my friends *big hugs* Where I'm living right now...I told one person. And it seems things are not the same *tears* I'm trying to tell myself it's her loss....but I'm still just getting used to the fact that it wasn't my fault. I still FEEL that if she leaves it's because I'm garbage *sigh*
Thanks for supporting me...I love you guys! *big huge hugs*
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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Honey you are in no way shape or form garbage. And I can not allow you to see yourself that way. So let me tell you how others view you. Not only are you beautiful on the outside (I know from the gorgeous new pic you posted), but you are also beautiful on the inside!!
You are the single most caring, loving, generous, uplifting, inspirational, motivating person I know. I love to read your posts or get e-mails from you b/c it is always a sunny spot in my day. And I know if you can go through all that you have and still be a caring and gentle person, then there is hope for me.
And if you lose your "friend" over this, then they were not your friend to begin with. Now wipe away those tears and let me that gorgeous smile!
Your Friend,
Christie
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Christie
~Hoping and Praying for Sleep!~
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Christie,
You're making me cry!
I want to believe what you're saying and G-d willing one day I will! I've been told so many negat five things...it's tough to allow new ideas in. But I'm working on it!
Thank you for remaining my friend even though yo know what I've been through. A lot of people leave. They think it's my fault. Or whatever the reasons are....(maybe, G-d forbid, it brings up something negative in them as 1 in 3 women are abused).
I am finding my voice. I havent' had one since I was 2 or 3 years old...possibly never. I am soo thankful for these boards. When Heather asked me to be a moderator for the boards I put my pic up. I was scared to as I had been stalked not too long before.
Ever since I found the boards I have been open and sharing. And it the best thing...well, except for hubby and G-d of course, that's ever happened to me!
Thanks for being my friend Christie...it's an honor!!! *big hugs*
With love, Ruch
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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Christie
~Hoping and Praying for Sleep!~
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Wish we lived closer so I could come visit.
You are a wonderful, wonderful person and I am honored to know you. You're caring, thoughtful, loving and you have a beautiful soul. When you're feeling down, hang on to how much we all care about you!
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HUGS--HUGS---HUGS-----HUGS------HUGS an a lot more,
you are alive an you are a survivor an that is all that counts.
God Bless you my sweet child.an I will say a pray for you.
HUGS--HUGS---HUGS-----HUGS-------HUGS .
 GERRY.
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Neta G.Yale
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If you would like to just talk please e-mail I'm here for you.we are all here for you.I have never been abuse in my 70 years.so I'm a very lucky person.but I have had sisters who have been so I know what it is like.
Gerry.
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Neta G.Yale
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Have you read "The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood"? It's one of my fave all time books and I lent it to everyone! My Mom calls it Valium in paperback!
Anyway, the reason I thought of it for you is that it deals with some abuse issues (as well as being a great book). My best friend (who's had major ED and depression issues partly due to her relationship with her parents) loved it.
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I have a question...why is it that you think this is beautiful? I'm not sure I see the beauty in it
Because surviving is strength and strength is beauty. You are a survivor, you are strong AND you are beautiful.
And your song is good work too.
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*Emma*
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OOO, that is a good book, I have it, so if you want to read it, Rache, I could send it to you. Let me know!
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Melissa
Friendship is thicker than blood. ~Rent
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Hi Linz!!!! Thanks *hugs*
I was just rememebering just now that someone mentioned this book just before Passover and was wondering why...so I was about to search for it and voila!
I am hoping to check it out of the library...
Thank you for being here for me *big hugs*
Lotsa love, Ruch
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Formerly known as Ruchie
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