Pity party time
#136879 - 01/10/05 11:21 AM
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atomic rose
Reged: 06/01/04
Posts: 7013
Loc: Maine (IBS-A stable since July '05!)
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Forgive me for whining... I just need to b*tch, and Adam's gotta be tired of hearing about some of this stuff by now. 
I feel miserable. I'm not even remotely stable right now. I'm not doing ANYTHING different from what I was doing a few months ago, so I have NO idea why I'm suddenly back to having D every morning, and then spending the rest of the day so nauseated that I can hardly do anything. On top of that, I'm ALWAYS exhausted and achy and my sinuses are driving me crazy. I'm not sick; I've been like this for weeks, never any worse, but never any better, either.
I had my first-ever *conscious* PTSD-related incident a couple days ago. Something I was watching on TV triggered me - I've never recognized those triggers before, so I guess I should be glad that I did, so I can avoid it in the future, but in the meantime, I haven't slept well since, because of the nightmares.
And money... ugh, nevermind, I don't even want to go there.
I've never felt so isolated and alone in my life.
I've been trying to reply to posts here and there, but I'm sorry if I've missed anything major - I read everything, and you've all been in my thoughts, whether I've replied to you specifically or not. Things are really rough here. I've just been physically and mentally miserable since 2005 started, and it's driving me nuts.
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Sorry to hear you've been feeling so bad.  This may be an off the wall question - but do you think you could be pregnant? If not, maybe you should go see your doctor. Especially if nothing has changed and you're still feeling icky.
As for Adam, I'm sure he just feels bad that you don't feel well. Hope you're taking it easy with your knitting and try not to worry too much about money (yeah like that's possible, right? know how that goes..).
Big hugs!
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- Jennifer
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Oh Casey!
#136893 - 01/10/05 11:39 AM
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RachelT
Reged: 07/01/04
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Loc: Minnesota
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I'm so sorry. I'm totally at a loss for what to say... I just hope this bad streak ends, SOON! You were doing so good! I hope it wasn't from eating Indian food... if so, than that's my fault and I'm even more sorry! Poor you! Big hugs sweetie!
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~ Rachel (IBS-C)
If life hands you lemons, make lemonade!!
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Nooooo....
#136894 - 01/10/05 11:39 AM
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atomic rose
Reged: 06/01/04
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Loc: Maine (IBS-A stable since July '05!)
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Definitely not pregnant, and no chance of it, thank goodness.
Unfortunately, I can't go see my doctor right now. I still haven't found a new doctor since I've moved, and my old one is 80 miles away. If I'm still feeling crappy in a few days, maybe I'll try the ER or something, although I'd feel like a real dork doing it.
I will take it easy, though... thank you. 
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LOL!
#136895 - 01/10/05 11:42 AM
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atomic rose
Reged: 06/01/04
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Loc: Maine (IBS-A stable since July '05!)
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*big hugs* right back... I REALLY doubt it was the Indian food, LOL! I was still fine, really, right through New Year's. After that, it seems like my body fell apart.
Hmm... maybe it's *lack* of Indian food? Heh.
Hope you're doing good, sweetie!
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Casey, I was going to post something asking you how you've been as I hadn't seen any posts from you in a while.
I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing well again. I think feeling great, and then going back to feeling lousy has got to be one of the cruelest jokes.
Could it be you need a higher dose of your anti-depressant? Remember that food isn't the only IBS trigger. Have you been stressing a lot because of money Or anything?
Could you have a bug in your system? Colds and viruses affect IBS a lot. Have you thought about going to your doc for a check up to make sure you're not anemic or anything like that?
I don't know if this is of any help, but you were pretty stable for quite some time and it will happen again.
You can lean on us as much as you need to.
Big hugs, sweetie.  
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Casey,
Okay, I'm at work and should not even be on this computer since my manager is very hovering today. But heck, when a friend is in trouble, priorities need to be made!
Just want to say, don't ever apologize for whining as you call it, on this board. You have always posted such helpful advice and encouraging words for all of us. Do you think you are superwoman? You can't be there for everyone all the time, and more importantly, no one expects you to be.
As far as feeling isolated and alone, you know that is the same exact way I am feeling. That is the one positive thing about going to work. At least it gets me out amongst people and out of the house. I think about you all alone all day and that has to be hard, as much as you love quiet and knitting! It is a lot of time to think about "stuff" and ruminate on problems:money, health, past traumas, etc.
I am so glad you decided to share this with us so that we can offer you the support you need.
And I agree, 2005 has been a stinker.
And thank you for your thoughts. Please don't feel like you need to respond to the posts if you aren't feeling up to it. Sometimes you just need to take a break, when you are feeling empty yourself. So let us give something to you now. Okay?
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~ Beth
Constipation, pain prodominent,cramps, spasms and bloat!
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Casey, you might want to consider some of these possibilities also.
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~ Beth
Constipation, pain prodominent,cramps, spasms and bloat!
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I'm so sorry Casey! I hope this is just a setback and you will get right back on track.
I am all screwed up too...I was C for almost 10 days and the past 2 days have been awful with pains. I just keep telling myself that this will pass....
I know what you mean about not wanting to always complain to Adam. I hardly ever tell Justin anymore when I feel sick, because I always feel like a burden
Feel better! <<HUGS>>>
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~Cara~
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Awwww!
#136917 - 01/10/05 01:20 PM
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Sheri01
Reged: 04/19/04
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Loc: New Jersey
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Casey it sucks that you are not doing so well. Your tummy will stabilize again, that is kinda odd it came out of nowhere, but if you are stressed out maybe that is causing it?
Don't even stress about keeping up on posts, just a word here or there to let us know you are alive is enough!
Make sure you get lots of stress, and I hope the PTSD lets up alittle too.
No need to feel lonely and isolated! I am sure that we all feel it at times, I know I have had my fair share.
Sending happy thoughts your way!
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-Sheri
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