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Amber....I just don't know what to say!

All my life I've been put down and told what I can't do...or told thre things I shoudl be doing but I'm too lazy to do.

I was used and abused by people. I was taken advantage of.

I was told I wouldn't get into college. I got into 3 out of 4 I applied to.

I was told I wouldn't graduate college. I graduated Emerson College with a 3.0 GPA and a 4.0 my final semester in Writing and Literatue the very subject I was told I could not major in successfully.

I was told I wasn't sick. When I would be on the floor in my underwear in SCREAMING pain rolling around like an animal it hurt so badly...I was sent to school anyway. It was "nerves" I was told. IT WAS IBS and it hurt like a KNIFE!

I was told I was a hypochondriac.

I was told if I got out more, I'd feel better. That it was depression. I was tested for depression (bifeedback)and I am not clinically depressed.....(but given many things I wen through, I was situationally depressed at times)...

I was told to wear revealing clothes because I have a beautiful bod. I always had an internal modesty and I only wanted to share myself with the man I would marry...

I was NOT told I deserve an award! And you are not goiving me an award because of my accmplishments (the only award I would have ever gottaen in the past). you are giving me an awrad for being me...and for who I am.

This is all I have ever wanted in life. To beloved for who I am.

And now it seems I am.

I have no words....

Thank you for seeing me and for loving what you see...

Teary eyed and filled with love,

ruchie

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Formerly known as Ruchie

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