Crying and crying and crying
#110121 - 10/03/04 08:17 PM
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I have not ever felt so much pain so severealy in so may places on my body as I have the past month or so.
And it's getting worse.
I picked up my coffee to drink it, and I spilledit. I even got it all over my brand new fibro book (Firbo for Dummies). All over my skirt, all over my sweatshirt...I just feel so EMBARASSED and like I'm such a mess! I keep runing into stuff (more than usual)...I keep repeating myself to hubby over and over...and he's loike "I get it". I'm not repeating it for him...but for me! I feel so incoherent that I want to make sure even I know what I'm saying...
I'm in SO MUCH PAIN I can't stop crying! I'm glad we didn't get a 2nd dog...I can barely take care of myself right now. Children are not even entering my mind tight now...
I tried tylenol arthritis...no luck. Coffee, which often wors for me, is doing nothing. How much longer will my life be like this...this is not a good quality of life  I REALLY hope the doc will see me soon! Waiting another week sounds like FOREVER! I need SLEEP desperately! PLEASE fibro friends, help!!
I have a doc appoint. at 7am tomorrow and I have no idea how I will ever make it! I als need to pick huubyy up for lunch (he needs to eat in our Succa lunch and he doesn't drive so i hav eto drive him home) G-d MUST help me or I won't make either one!
I'm scared! Things seem to be getting worse for me. I know part of it may be my anitbiotic. but I've been on it for days...would it get increasingly worse as time goes on...and would it effect all of my fibro symptoms (my sense of smeel is more accute etc.).
I needa HUG! I need a shoulder. I need MEDICINE! LOL
One day I'm gonna laugh at spilling coffeee, I hope! That's my goal. But RIGHT NOW the pain is too much to bear.
Thanks for listening...I love you all
Ruchie
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Aw, Ruchie...
I hope you get to see a doctor soon, too! If the pain gets too unbearable, you could always go to the ER. Remember that!
Please remember that this too shall pass. Things WILL get better!
Lots of hugs for you!
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>>BIG HUGS!<<
I'm so sorry that this is so bad for you Ruchie! Can you maybe go to the hospital or call your doctor for some advice?? Someone has to be able to get you something to help with the pain, at least until your doctor appt. I don't have that kind of pain, so I don't know the first thing about dealing with it But SOMEone has to be able to help, they just HAVE to! Is there a clinic nearby that you can go to? Or can you call your pharmacy for advice?
You can make it through tomorrow - you'll get to your appt, and to pick up your husband. You are SO brave! I'll be wishing tonight that you wake up feeling much better tomorrow to make everything easier ...
Good luck love!
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Ruchie <<<<<<<<<<<<BIG HUGS>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Maybe you should go to the ER, they can give you some killer pain meds and then maybe you could get some sleep!! I hope you feel better soon. It will get better hon I swear!!!
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Hey Ruchie,
Sending loads of hugs and good thoughts your way  I'm sorry you're having such a rough time...try and hang in there...it WILL get better eventually.
While I was reading your post a lot of it really reminded me of myself (the spilling things, bumping into things, repeating yourself) and I just wanted to make a suggestion in case no one has mentioned it to you before. I was like that for a few months, just completely out of it and in a "fog". It turned out it was due to dangerously low levels of vitamin B12 from my crummy diet. I had B12 shots for awhile, started eating better and taking nightly supplements, and alot of the fogginess has gone away. Just a thought in case you've never had it checked. It can cause all sorts of neurological problems (my worst thing was putting stuff from the fridge in the cupboards and the cupboards in the fridge - ruined some food that way!).
Hope you feel better soon!
Kelly
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Re: Ruchie...
#110152 - 10/04/04 12:09 AM
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KinOz
Reged: 02/02/03
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Dear Ruchie,
I have been off the boards for some time with problems of my own but have still been thinking of you all this time and wondering how you were getting on.
I'm so sorry to hear that you are still not well. I was really hoping things had picked up for you by now.
I will keep you in my prayers and I know you will receive the help you so desperately need. There were many times that I thought I wasn't going to make it but at long last we are expecting our MIRACLE baby!
I really, really hope you feel better soon and get in to see the Doctor you had mentioned.
Hugs,
Kerrie
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Oh honey!
#110156 - 10/04/04 12:43 AM
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Linz
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Get some painkillers! Can you get Solpadeine over there? That's paracetamol and codeine, but with caffeine, but if you're drinking coffee, then you cares about the caffeine in the drugs! If you make it out to get hubby, take a bottle of water with you (or buy one) and stop at a pharmacy and take some drugs! Then keep taking them as often as you're allowed.
The clumsiness is part of it sweetheart - I'm ALWAYS knocking glasses of dissolved pain meds over as as soon as I get bad with Fibro or migraines, I get so clumsy and my hands don't work properly.
Get a cab tomorrow morning. I'[m guessing you won't be in a good state that early after all this.
It'll get better, I PROMISE! The antibiotics could still be screwing you up. Fibro is weird about that kind of thing. V.unpredictable.
{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Love Linz
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Things will get better.. and guess what- I'm covered with bruises.. had a few accidents up at camp... most notably missign one of the steps to the bunks and landing spread eagled- got a nice bruise from a step on the inside of my thigh.. and banging both knees on benches by the campfire... but thats my screwy night vision failing me totally... after that I was very nervous and tense driving home and I'm still stiff...
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Ruchie, I'm so sorry your so miserable right now. I know you have seen several dr's, have they checked for lupus and ms? I hope things start going better for you! Here is a big hug just for you! HUG, HUG, HUG!! Ok, so maybe three hugs instead of one! I wish I could do something more for you sweeite!
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Awww, poor Ruchie! *sends major hugs* I can't type much now, have to go TA a class, but I hope things get better really really soon!
Good luck at the doc's tomorrow!
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Thank you SO MUCH for responding!
I spoke to my GP last night and he told me to take 3 IBProfen for the pain and Unisom for sleep. I slept less last night than I have in ages and I still can't sleep and the pian was so bad it woke me in the night and I cried for hours on and off.
I am supposed to call my doc later today. he needed to know if it was the mediciation I was taking hat was doing this or somehting else. I am STILL in pain...so I'm guessing it's fibro.
He plans to put me on a low dose anti depressant and something for sleep today. I HOPE SO! I cannot live like this! It has to be fibro. I was tested for blood worj omn all accounts and I'm normal as they come!  So no lupus or MS or lyme disease or anything like that! That leaves fibro, CFS, hypoglycemia, and diabetes. Or Syndrome X! I'm betting is fibro...
I am sO GLAS I have this board and that I have my hubby. I am NOT happy in this community! I am all alone here. I have no friends, they're all in NY and Boston (and of course everyone on the boards), and my fam is in Florida! I don't know WHAT I would do without all of you!
Today I hads an MRI done on my jknee to see if I need surgery and a CT Scan done on my sinuses to see if I need sinus surgery. I will find out about sinus surgery at the ENT tomroorw.
It seems like my life revovles around going to docs these days and trying to sleep and lessen the pain. I couldn't drive myself to the doc today...hubby had to take me Whatever is making me so sick...it'ds robbing me of my life!
BUT...it won't continue to do that for long, no sirree! I will get to the bottom of this...for my name is Sherlock (ok, fine it's Ruchie...close enough right?) Seriously...a soon as they get some meds in me I will start to fell better. I take hot showers and use my heaitng pad...I waslk a bit theoughout the day...I'm doing my part :-) Now it's up to G-d!
Anyhow, thanks again for your repsones and for being here. I REALLY would go into a depression without the support of these boards. You guys make me feel better..and you make me feel supported and loved! I hope I do the same fopr all of you...you're so special and amazing *hugs*
I love you guys!
Ruchie
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Hi Ruchie,
Sorry to jump in so late after you've already thanked everybody else but I just wanted to stick my head in to say I'm sorry you're feeling so low. I can't even imagine all the things you are going through and I just have no idea how you are so brilliant to everyone else when you are going through all this. You are such a lovely person, you must have some good luck coming your way soon! Try to keep that in mind to hurry the week along until you can see a doctor and hopefully get this sorted out!
I can't offer any fibro advice 'cause I'm pretty clueless about all of that, but I hope you got some good advice from your online fibro friends! And I especially hope you start to feel better soon, luv.
***** HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUGGGGGG*****
-Steph
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I would like to say that I hope you start feeling better soon. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with all that pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Ruchie!
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~ Rachel (IBS-C)
If life hands you lemons, make lemonade!!
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I always love hearing from you...you always compliment me  
I hope you're reight about good luck coming my way! But I have good luck with all of you for friends and the best hubby I could've asked for!
I'm gonna go try my GP again and see if he can get me some meds...the pian is geting even worse! On the p side...at least I think I know what it is (fibro) and I have a doc standing with me...so hopefully I'll be able to learn to manage it and have many many good days (in addiotn to the bad). That would be SO SWEET!!!!! 
Love ya back Steph *hugs*
Ruchie
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Thanks for the thoughts and prayers! I need em', so keep em' coming
How arew oy doing thse days? I hope great!
Tanks again...you're so swet!
Love,
Ruchie
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Even when you're suffering the way you are, you're still thinking of others!
I'm not doing bad... I've been in the process of moving to another state, and ended up cheating horribly last week. I'm paying for it, but I can live with it. Just learned a lesson, that's all.
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If life hands you lemons, make lemonade!!
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Hubby and I moved twice in the past 2 years (once across the country!) and moving is HARDS STUFF! don't beat yourself up about it at all!
You just get back on track...I know you will
Let me know how you're doing/feeling...I'm hinking about you!
*hugs*
Ruchie
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Oh poor Ruchie,
So sorry you are having such a tough time of it, sweetie. I hope you get some meds really soon to help you. In the meantime I am sending you bunches & bunches of hugs. Feel better soon, OK!
Barbie
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Okay Barbie, I'll feel better soon...I can foloow orders!
You're so sweet! I am speaking to the doc in 4.5 hours...no soon enough! But when I do...I'm gonna make SURE he gives me some hard core meds before I let him get off that ophoen!
Thanks again for your hugs and suuport. I hope all's well with you and your soggies!
Love,
Ruchie
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Ruchie
#110294 - 10/04/04 12:01 PM
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Tissy
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Hey Ruchie,
I just saw your post. I haven't been on the boards all weekend. My hubby and I went to a bull roast on Saturday night. And we haven't been out in so long without the two kids. So we danced all night long. Well needless to say on Sunday I was in so much pain. I could barely make it up and down the steps in my house. And to top it off I had to teach Sunday school fro 4 year olds. OMG by the end of Sunday I thought I was going to die. And yet still couldn't sleep! And today I got up late and was in a rush so I wore a hat so I didn't have to do my hair. Well stupid me! Now I have a migraine and I am at work on deadline so I can't leave. But there is always hope that tomorrow will be a better day!
I hope you get yourself diagnosed soon. You are so much worse off with the Fibro then me. I think Linz, Laura Sue, and JenX are probably better for advice. But I try to stay warm all the time b/c I start to ache if cold. And I always seem to be cold. It is 76 degrees here today and I am in jeans and a sweatshirt and thinking about putting on a sweater. I take the Tylenol Extra Strength like Laura Sue recommended when I start to get achey. It usually does the trick but on a bad day I take a naproxen with an immodium like Laura Sue suggested. (The naproxen triggers my IBS-D.) Hot showers are good too!
I hope you feel better soon! Good luck with the doc. 
Christie
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Christie,
WOW! It sounds like you had fun (except for getting sick afterwards...phooey!) this weekend...you deserve to have a good time!
I'm really sorry you got sore. I'm sorry you have a migraine! I'm sorry you have fibro......
BUT I'm glad you're on the boards!
You have a LOT of great info...don't short change yourself. even if yo haven't been diagnosed for long...you still fibto. So you know more than you think! 
When do you get off work? I hope it's soon! I think it's AMAZING you work with fibro..I hope I'l be able to work again one day...AND you're a MOM AND a WIFE...do you know you have THREE major jobs PLUS tkaing care og yourself, that's FOUR...WOW! Christie, you have your hands full! We need to make a special award for people like you!!!
Seriously, PLEASE give yourself a apt on the back! and if things get to be too much of a load, you can always talk it out with us! In the meantime...make sure you grt some Christie time in every day! You're your most important job!!!
I think I'm gonna make it...gotta hang in umntil I can call the doc and get some MEDS in me...just a few motre hours (hope it doesn't take forver for them to start to kick in...!)
Hope everything goes graeatfor you at worl with your deadline!
Love ya!
Ruchie
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#110317 - 10/04/04 01:26 PM
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LauraSue
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Hi, Ruchie, sweetie!
Two things.
1. G-d WILL help you!
2. Take it one HOUR at a time.
{{{{{{{Gentle fibro hug}}}}}}}
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#110457 - 10/04/04 07:54 PM
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Tissy
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Hey Ruchie,
I made my deadline but i still have migraine as of this moment and I also have my monthly visitor.  I just took a naproxen b/c can't handle headache and cramps all at once.
I do have a lot on my plate but I don't need an award. If you could see my house right now, OMG! But that is how it goes! I can't do laundry and clean house and work and cook and take care of the kids when i am fibroed out. So if things must lack it is the housework I neglect. My family is first and then work cause I need the money and vrything else waits til the hubby does it or I have a real good day. And i used to get upset about it but now I just let it go, it is not worth worrying about.
Just remember that when everything is piling up around the house, etc. It is not worth getting upset about it! And i am so glad to hear you have a supportive hubby! That really helps. My hubby gives me back rubs on days that are really bad. He has done that even before I was diagnosed. We just thought I pulled my back out alot and always got tension headaches. Who knew it was Fibro? Well, Linz knew but who else knew?
You hang in there girl! I will keep checking up on you.
Christie
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You don't NEED it, I know that silly. But you EARMNED it! :-)
Oh no, migraine and cousin flow? Now you REALLY deserve an award Seriously, are you ok? Are the meds helping? That' SO not fair!!!
I agree with you about the housecleaning...most import id your health and happiness! And fam of course.
Ok, I'd better get going...I have to start my bedtime routine and then take my sleep medicine...hope it works!
Love,
Ruchie
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