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I'm so glad someone asked this question about IBS and depression...'cause that's what I was logging on to do, actually.
For quite a while I've been feeling "off" - I have no desire to do much of anything, work (which always energized me, to the point that I would work CRAZY hours w/o it feeling like work at all) doesn't get me motivated anymore which scares me. I'm just pretty apathetic and content to come home each night and sit in front of the TV. And do the same on weekends. That NEVER used to be me. I'm a Believer (Christian) and my spiritual life isn't so fabulous either - I've let that slip MAJORLY too...
I do know that I'm hitting a major transition point at my work (a nonprofit which I've LOVED working at for the last 5 years)...my boss is leaving, my current position is being done away with & so I'm being offered another position in the organization that I'm not sure I want. I'm also don't have clear DIRECTION either, so even looking for another job is a little overwhelming 'cause I'm not certain of what I want. I'm only 27...so I've heard this is typical "quarter life crisis" mode. But I still HATE it.
Put the work stuff, which really was a ton of my life, on top of my IBS/health stuff, the fact that I'm spiritually not as "in tune" as I should be, all of the big life questions i'm dealing with...I guess a little depression wouldn't be so surprising in hindsight. Oh yeah. and I believe I'm an emetophobe (fear of vomiting) which has led to no eating & weight loss of 15 pounds...I'm sort of a mess right now!! ;(
I've never pictured myself going through depression. And I'm not totally clear I know for sure what to look for exactly.
I just had a few conversations with potential therapists over the last few days. I want to be proactive and get on top of all this stuff before I become completely unraveled. I'm stronger than that...but it's still really hard to see myself this way.
Thanks for bringing up this discussion...if anyone has anything to share/offer, I'd love to hear from ya. But otherwise, this was cathartic in and of itself - getting it out there in the open, ya know?
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East Palo Alto, CA (San Francisco Bay Area/Silicon Valley)
IBS-C, pain, nausea
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Thank you for reminding me of all I have to be thankful for. I will do this!
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Talk about major changes in your life! That can be overwhelming! I think getting your spiritual life back on track will help with the rest of your issues. I will pray for you tonight. Take each day and just do what comes next. Life changes and crisis occur at all ages. Changes are opportunites to look for other things that you are interested in and things that will make you a better person. This a certainly a bump in the road but I have faith that you will come out on top. Let us know how you get along!
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Hey Beanie,
I mentioned this in another post today...
I laid in bed this morning, COMMITTED to not having a "down" or "blah" day and letting everything that I should get done go undone. This would just cause me to feel even worse 'cause I let more stuff go. So...got up, felt my morning nausea like usual (haven't been taking Protonix...should get back on track!). Still felt sorta low energy, but pushed through it.
Got up & went at a bunch of chores like crazy - dishes, wash, etc. etc. Wasn't going to let low energy stop me. Then got ready for church, and actually went. For the first time in 4 months, which is the first time I've ever let myself go that long without church - & personally, that's horrible for me.
As I would have expected, church was the PERFECT place for me today. I ended up reconnecting with tons of folks that I haven't seen in ages since I had been going to the evening service, not morning (I love to sleep in, so would miss the AM services). Several people asked how I was. I told them the truth (about being completely confused & overwhelmed, etc.). All of them really spoke into my life today - offering encouragement, wisdom, etc. It was a totally "God" thing, if that makes any sense to you.
Anyhow - I was feeling so much better emotionally/spiritually leaving church today. Stomach was still bugging me a little (nausea), but again, I pushed thru it and did errands that needed to be done. Rather than wallowing and coming right back home & feeling sorry for myself. This is, I think, what I've been doing for too long.
So - all in all, a very good day. I got a lot accomplished, so I no longer feel like a loser there. And I just feel really encouraged and supported by those folks I talked to. God's good!!
Thanks for responding to my post & substantiating what I'm feeling now. I really appreciate it! I'm feeling pretty tired now, so NOW I'm going to veg out. but I deserve it...and earned it today! 
One day at a time...I can do that...
~ E.
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East Palo Alto, CA (San Francisco Bay Area/Silicon Valley)
IBS-C, pain, nausea
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That is the best news I have heard all day! I have been thinking about you all week. I am so glad that you went to church. It is always the times with you make yourself go that mean the most! I know everyone was glad you were there but I bet you were the happiest.
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...and in further news - I scored myself a therapist...have my first meeting with her next week Monday after work (I also got one of the prime evening spots - sweet!).
She sounds great & I'm SO EXCITED. She works with young adults/young professionals on career & life stuff, as well as with women for anxiety issues. I'm really looking forward to starting with her & working through some of these issues that are causing anxiety (which isn't going to help the IBS at all!).
Also really considering the Hypnotherapy CD's. Anything to get me back in full health & wholeness.
Now...I think I screwed up by trying one of my coffee drinks today (or maybe it was the chocolate chip/peanut butter cookies I had last night) - I thought I was "halfway" following the rules by doign a SOY white mocha from Starbucks, but based on how I'm feeling, I'm not sure that was smart. Probably too soon to try and break the rules you're just starting to learn! Maybe it will be a minor "payback" this time round. Shame on me! I deserve it, regardless. ;(
~ E.
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East Palo Alto, CA (San Francisco Bay Area/Silicon Valley)
IBS-C, pain, nausea
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Talking to a therapist is a great idea. I have a girlfriend who used one and it was a godsend for her. Let me know if you try the CD's. I am interested in seeing how that works.
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I have had depression and anxiety for yrs and never attributed it to IBS. My doc has me on wellbutrin and it doesn't affect my ibs at all-it's great! i hope everyone is well since depression can really mess with ones life! my faith has helped me thru alot that's for sure! 
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Nanashr - I also have had panic attachs to where I could not leave my home, have you found any good help for the problem?
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Wow... this is EXACTLY how I feel right now and I can't seem to "snap out of it"! I'm extremely glad that this topic was brought up!!!
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