REPORTING IN - 12/6/05
#229612 - 12/06/05 09:44 AM
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ugh. a *bad* old-fashioned binge day, on a scale that was rare even way back when. cookies at the office, maybe ten over the course of the day? plus crackers (all left-overs from the benefit last night), and then when i got home a couple of ff cookies, some wheat thins, and a bowl of soy delicious w/ peanut butter. ugh. i went to the gym tonight and i'll be okay, but it just felt *backwards.* i'm not sure what brought this on, what i was trying to ignore. the most obvious thing is money stress - i suddenly (okay, not suddenly, but through my own not-goodness with money) have 25 dollars till next paycheck - a week from thursday. but that's survivable. this morning i just felt *crappy* - like pms, but it's not. tired. not sleepy, but just *tired*, stressed, like i'm overcommitted and stretched thin, but i'm not. that sort of sourceless sense of something being off. a friend suggested it's from winter, but i love winter, it snowed for the first time last night. and i'd been feeling like that before realizing what was up with my bank account. so i don't know. but it led to the bingeing. boo. i'm feeling better now, and the gym was good, but... well, that was my day.
-------------------- jaime
ibs-a (mostly d) // vegetarian
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I cannot stop sleeping. OMIGOD. This is miraculous! Could it be the lack of stimulants (coffee, cigarettes)? Hmmmm...methinks YES! Once again, the Nicoderm patch is really effective.
Actually, my M.D. phoned and said I'm anemic and also need more B12 shots, so, that's probably a factor. Nearly whipped up borscht but that felt like way too much SF for today and I'm not in the mood to see red.
Lots of a.m. nausea. Saltines really saved the day. Also, I am discovering that I am honestly too full for stuff like rice/potatoes and generally they end up in the trash, uneaten. Could it be my inner cookie monster returning? PROBABLY. Okay, maybe I'm just in my reclaim my right/priviledge to eat cookies/crackers/cereal instead of other starches, phase. Warped, I know. I think also that because I'm doing food prep. for just me, that I am not motivated.
saltines
more saltines
spinach & portabellini mushrooms with rice parmesan cheese, fines herbs, and balsalmic vinegar (so yummy!)
more spinach & mushrooms with rice parmesan cheese, etc.
organic dried apricot snack (yum)
teddy grahams
tic tacs
Hmmm...I suppose it doesn't sound like much, but if I eat anymore I will vomit. Tomorrow is another day. I did eat alot of mushrooms. I'm still working through the 10lbs. I have in the fridge (yes, seriously).
Kate.
Edited by Wind (12/06/05 09:11 PM)
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Ugh. Money stress. Isn't stress a theif?
Tomorrow is another day. Hugs. I hope you rest.
Kate.
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Hey,
Ok, so I did a bit better today, although I had a few celebratory glasses of wine with friends, since I finished all my finals today!
*banana, shredded oats, soymilk, tea
*half plain bagel with vegan cheese, small salad with chickpeas and nonfat dressing
*slice of fresh baked sourdough bread, carrot sticks, split pea soup
*about 3 glasses of wine and a small vegan lemon cookie
-------------------- Julia
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thanks, kate. i do feel like today's a new day, and though it sucked to be so regressive, i'm moving on.
but what i *hate* is that i had an attack this morning - i hate that it was so my fault. aside from the buttery cookies all day, i had three french fries last night. i went to sleep fine, but then woke up rumbly. i ended up coming into work a few hours late, sleeping the attack off. and it was totally my fault, total hubris about the french fries. 'oh, it's just three, and i'm home and about to go to bed, so it won't hurt me.' wrong. it just sucks to get sick entirely of my own fault. so today is tea and bread and a banana, and probably not more. and i'm supposed to go out tonight, and doesn't an attack and a recovery day just make you feel *so* pretty and attractive. ugh ugh ugh.
-------------------- jaime
ibs-a (mostly d) // vegetarian
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Hubris
#229882 - 12/07/05 11:00 AM
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Wind
Reged: 04/02/05
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Hmmm...just 3 never works with me, either. I hear you!!! Except for me, it's with green beans versus french fries (pathetic, huh?!) Yes, if I eat too many vegetables, I get big time D attacks. I'm trying to cut my fiber significantly, i.e. to around 30g (or less). I'm sort of playing with the numbers.
Are you drinking enough fluid? Trust me it helps--especially when you're "vulnerable." So does a nap. I don't know why, but a nap really helps.
I've learned that with most things, hubris has its "taxes." Do you ever get that sort of "food high" where you think that you're semi-invinsible and that well...it's not going to get to you? I do. And then, "woosh," "kaboom," (you're basic "Green Lantern" fill in the blank captions)!
One of these days we'll figure it out! This "Memories of Smoking" thing has me sleeping all the time. I'm having R.E.M. binges. Honestly, I cannot stop sleeping and I feel younger. I have to avoid hubris in the company of trigger people in my life with the habit. Hmmm...the big bad wolves I love. I just don't want to be one of them unto myself. And then there's "Hansel & Gretel," and I get nightmares when I've overeaten/overfed me. Or, that swimming pool dream, i.e. it needs to be pumped. Hubris--and then we have the upcoming holidays...
Kate.
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definitely. what it is for me, though, is more of an escape. i wouldn't call it a trance, but i become unaware of what i'm eating, and whatever it is i'm trying to ignore/deal with. it's like watching tv or biting my nails - a sort of vegging out, out-of-body, where the mechanical, automatic thing i'm doing (eating or biting my nails, mostly) distracts me, but i'm also not paying attention to it, either. i can't wait till my health insurance starts (january 1) - i'm going to get into therapy and try to deal with this stuff for real. in so many ways i think it could really help me.
-------------------- jaime
ibs-a (mostly d) // vegetarian
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I understand how you feel. I am broke as hell, too. I don't even want to put up the tree because we have no money to buy presents this year! Ever since I had to quit BOTH OF MY JOBS, we have been without, pretty much everything. OH well.... Tomorrow is another day.....you're not alone, girl. I feel badly for you. If I could binge, I would, too. But, unfortunately my gut is so unstable that I would puke if I tried to binge. I really would love to drown my sorrows in about 10 lbs of chocolate right about now, though!!
Michelle
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Started off very bad day!!! D-Attack!!! 3 Imodium before 12:00pm and about 4 Pepto! The end of the day turned out to be just fine, though....Thank God!!
Citrucel
Mini Bagel Chamomile Tea
Homemade Baked Fries Chamomile Tea
Citrucel
More Homemade Baked Fries (everyday yummy!!) Cream of Wheat
Mashed Potato Burrito Nilla Wafers
Another Mashed Potato Burrito Nilla Wafers
Mashed Potato/Mushroom Bake
Mushrooms
Citrucel
Bed!
Slept better, too!
Michelle
-------------------- IBS-D. Hiatal Hernia, GERD
Unstable
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