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my mother is a large lady, for the record.

my response to her, is MIND YOUR OWN PLATE!!! and, I HEAR YOU, but I'M NOT LISTENING.

she thinks that everyone needs to eat meat and lots of it everyday and blames everything that goes wrong in my life due to the fact that i don't eat meat. i tried, just to make her happy, for a brief spell...however, it offended/insulted my body and my conscience and was ultra-painful for my IBS. plus, seeing whole pieces of undigested and distinct meat/fish particles daily in the toilet, and virtually immediate bathroom trips after eating meat, but most especially fish, made me stop being an idiot and appeasing my mother.

but that's beside/beyond the point. i guess, i sort of feel like a self-conscious idiot. i've been logging daily since high school. it does make a difference/help...especially with ibs and well...just keeping yourself in check. you can actually eat a lot of food if it is low-energy density, i.e. fruits/veggies, and still have eaten less than a thousand calories. i know i'm not giving myself energy to get motivated or go for a walk. i guess, in a sense, i'm keeping myself at a low-energy, i.e. calorie, budget or income to keep myself a prisoner or perpetuate my physical apathy. that's one kind of thought/reflection.

it's really interesting, to note (at least for me, lately), that by the end of the day, i'm just too tired or disinterested to be hungry or chew/digest, etc. and don't want acid or heartburn or D. also, fruits/veggies are really filling/satisfying and low calorie. and when you eat kind of the same stuff, predominantly pureed/food processed due to having TMJ and bad teeth and anxiety (yes, anxiety makes me kind of panicked re: food and chewing and I suppose regressive/infantile and spoon-feeding feels good, psychologically) because you know it's prepared lovingly and safely i guess you just sort of take it for granted.

but, this week, i do have a few different foods to try should i feel experimental. and i'm trying to try different styles/recipes/foods. it is just hard to try new food things when you have ibs.

you're a sweetie. i hope your acid/nausea is better, today.
when your insurance kicks in, it should be less problematic.
sometimes, cinnamon on something helps with my nausea. i notice that lately. bizzare. i just put it on applesauce or baked PEELED apple, or bake a banana with it sprinkled on top. warped.

one reason i like this board is because we encourage each other, and challenge each other and share ideas/thoughts/insights...and jaime, we have alot in common, just different manifestations.

hugs,
kate.

Edited by Wind (11/08/05 10:50 AM)

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