Happy Birthday to my Angel
#245909 - 02/13/06 09:23 AM
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michele
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Today would have been my second babies first birthday. We know she would have been a healthy little baby girl had my body been able to carry her. My shrink said it was good to acknowledge these types of days and try to be at peace with the souls I have lost. I keep telling myself that even though my babies weren't born to me that they are well and happy and there souls are in the universe. I like to envision my babies all playing together in a field of flowers on a bright sunny day, with birds chirping and butterflies flying and a cool breeze blowing so they don't get too hot! I know my babies wouldn't want there mommy to be sad and hurting but I miss them so. I imagine what they would look like and how they would act. I can't help but to cry for them all. But, today, please say a birthday wish to my little girl that I may have never met but I will never forget. Happy Birthday Sweetheart, your mommy will always love you.
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There are no other words to say, but I doubt you and your little baby girl will leave my thoughts/prayers today.
((((((((hugs))))))
-------------------- Take care,
Michelle
...the greatest of these is LOVE. (I Cor 13)
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Thanks Michelle. I definietly need the hugs. I'm trying to be at peace and be strong but with all the other medical stuff going on, I just feel so weak and sad.
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I think all of us who have experienced a miscarriage of a baby we had waited for always wonder these things. I know I do. Know you are not alone, and that we are here for you!
-------------------- God is Faithful!
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Thanks Bamagirl. I'm trying to keep my memories of my babies happy but its not always easy to do. Thanks for the never ending support, it means a lot!
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You're often in my thoughts and prayers, Michele, but today I am sending a few extra hugs your way!
-------------------- Christine
Those who can do; those who want it done better teach.
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Thanks Christine, I really appriciate all the endless support. Hugs much needed and appriciated also!
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oh Michele! what a sad sad day. Lots of hugs your way, and good thoughts for you and your baby in heaven.
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Michelle, That was such a heart wrenching post that it made my eyes tear too. I am so sorry to hear that that happened! I'm sure they're in good hands wit the Lord, but it doesn't make it any easier for you. You have my deepest sympathies! -Bob
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it might help to know, it is good and right and normal and dare I say "healthy" to feel that way. Don't deny your feelings or try to act "okay". You are taking all of this step by step by step. We're all here to listen.
I keep you lifted up in so much prayer! more ((((Hugs))))
-------------------- Take care,
Michelle
...the greatest of these is LOVE. (I Cor 13)
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Michele
#245942 - 02/13/06 12:00 PM
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OK my husband is going to come into my office wondering why I am crying my eyes out! I too remember the birthdays of the babies that I have lost...say a prayer for them...and let them know that mommy can't wait to see them in heaven. It is healthy and as I told you before, my first baby would be 22 years old right now!
Maybe our babies are playing together in heaven!
Many hugs and prayers for you, Will and the babies.
-------------------- Have a blessed day!...Rachel
stable and sooooooo thankful!
I have IBS but it doesn't have me!
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-------------------- Christie
~Hoping and Praying for Sleep!~
Edited by Tissy (02/13/06 12:26 PM)
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Re: Michele
#245950 - 02/13/06 12:27 PM
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michele
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Thanks Rachel. I knew this day was coming, of course, for a few weeks now and I thought I'd be ok but well, I'm really having a rough day. I don't know if the steroids I'm on are making the depression worse, luckily, I've only 2 or 3 days left of them. Then I had to get up very early to start physical therapy this morning and got rear ended on the way. Luckily my car was not damaged at all but his Mercedes was very scratch, it was his fault, he was driving too fast! I'm so very sore from the pt and have yet another dr's appt in an hour and I'm just having a bit of a melt down today. I know its ok and normal but I think there's just so much right now that I just can't deal with anything! I don't plan on coming back to the office after my dr's appt, I need to go home and have myself a proper cry and a nap.
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Thanks Bob, sorry to make everyone else teary today but I appriciate all the support.
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Thanks Spicey. It is a sad day but I'm trying to make it a happy day, it is a birthday after all right? My little girl would want a party with balloons and cake and lots of little friends. I know my shrink says I need to make peace with it and I'm trying but its so hard on days like these.
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Michele, what a beautiful message to your daughter. I just know she is celebrating this birthday with her siblings...and grateful that her mother loves her so much.
Love and hugs and prayers for you....and birthday wishes to your little one.
-------------------- ~ Beth
Constipation, pain prodominent,cramps, spasms and bloat!
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Thanks Beth. I appriciate all the continued support. May peace find us all.
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Thanks Michelle, I don't always feel healthy in my grieving so its good to hear that its ok. I'm trying to find the peace but it feels just out of reach right now.
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I understand honey and you are in my thoughts today. I have a few of those coming up and I am dreading it. I think Rachel is right all of our little ones are playing together right now! Hugs sweetie!!
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Michele, your post brought a tear to my eye, but also made me realise how in control you are now and how well you are dealing with your emotions and taking things easy. Well done, it can't have been easy.
Hugs,
-------------------- S.
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Thanks Angela. I know that you do understand. Hugs to you to!
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Thanks Cailin, I wished I felt as "in control" as you think I am! The water works have been running on and off all day, uncontrollably at times! But, I do think thats ok for someone in my situation.
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How sweet i'll pray to her to have a good one!!!!
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Michele,
#246082 - 02/13/06 09:50 PM
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Hugs of the strongest kind for you. you are such ana amazingly strong woman, and so in touch with your emotions. i believe your babies are doing just what you sid they were. God needs people like you, to believe in the good when all the bad happens. You are AMAZING.
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I can't believe this is everyhing you're going through and you still went to work, you nut. Take some time for yourself, to heal in all nine ways!
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Aww Michele, my heart was breaking as I read this post. I think it's very good that you remember these days as well...and I'm sorry that you have to be sad. Hang in there...I'm thinking about you
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Happy birthday to your dear angel. I'm sure she knows how much you love her.
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Thanks Tina. Your continued support means a lot to me!
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Thanks Kelly, yesterday was rough but today is a bit brighter.
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Re: Michele,
#246184 - 02/14/06 08:34 AM
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michele
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Thanks Shannon. I'm honestly trying very hard to be strong. Some days its easier than others.
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Thanks Shelby, you're great!
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Yeah, I wish I could take a day off here and there when I need it but my job doesn't work like that. I work for a small eye dr's office, its just the doc and I. He is only in 2 half days and one full day. There isn't anyone else to work if I'm not here. My boss is really nice and treats me well but if I need time off, we have to close the office so unless I'm dying, I'm at work.
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Hi Michele, I'm thinking of you and your little baby. I hope this day isn't to hard for you. I'm so sorry your down.
MUCH LOVE!!!!
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Thanks Steph! Where you been hiding?? Whats new?
Yesterday was very hard but today is a new day.....
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Thanks, you are a very strong woman and I admire all you've been through and the fact that you're dealing with everything so well. You rock!
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