Countdown: One week till the big move and...
#107316 - 09/21/04 02:13 PM
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atomic rose
Reged: 06/01/04
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Loc: Maine (IBS-A stable since July '05!)
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...I feel like I'm getting nowhere fast. This isn't my first homebuying experience, and it's definitely not my first move, but it IS the first time I've tackled all this stuff while recovering from 8 months of IBS so bad that I spent most of it bedridden, and I'm not having a good time at all.
Most of it is just me holding myself to unrealistic expectations, I'm sure. I just about cried the other day, because I realized that I've lost so much muscle mass the past year that I can't even move a trash-bag full of clothes from one end of the apartment to the other. I'm sure a lot of people would use it as a valid reason to not have to lift heavy things, but instead, I've spent the past week beating myself up for being frail, sick, a weakling, helpless, and useless to everyone. I'm used to being the self-sufficient one who gets everything done herself, and I'm not digging the idea of sitting back and "letting" the man do all the heavy work because I can't. That just kills me.
Even packing has been slow. Today I packed 4 boxes and promptly fell asleep afterwards for 2 hours. 
On top of that, the financing company keeps throwing these unpleasant little "surprises" at us - things like deadlines for stuff they never told us about in the first place, the day they're due. I'm starting to dread getting up in the morning, because the message light on the answering machine is always blinking, and 99% of the time it's at least one message having to do with the house. The lexapro is doing wonders for my over-all anxiety, but it doesn't do squat for actual stress... so while I'm not freaking out, exactly, I'm definitely not sitting over here being all mellow and taking the last-minute crap in stride.
Oh, and the apartment is like a bomb hit it, but I suppose that's a given. I hate living in a pigsty, but I haven't got the energy to organize it any better or clean it, so I don't.
I feel bad that I've hardly been around, and that I'm definitely not keeping up with posts and people the way I used to. I suppose that's life, but I read everything and feel bad that I don't have the energy to type up a reply. 
Phew. But I do feel a little better for venting. LOL
Ruchie - Just lots of HUGS to you, sweetie.
Heather(7476) - I really hope you feel better soon, been thinking of ya!
Steph (UnhappyTummy) - ditto!!
To all the new folks I may have missed - Hi and welcome! *waves*
Ok... I think I'm going to end the pity party, eat an RKT, and try to pack some more boxes. SIGH. One week!!
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Casey
<<<<<<<<<<<BIG HUGS>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
It will all be ok I promise. Moving SUCKS. I swear I am never doing it again. Take one day at a time. Keep thinking about your great new house, that helped me alot. I lost my uncle to ALS the day before we closed on our old house. My Grandparents (it was their youngest son) bought it back (long story). We went from the funeral home to the title company. SHITY DAY.
It will be grand once you get in and start to put up your things in your wonderfull new house. I am realy happy for you. It will be OK. Let your man help. It is his stuff to. 
Good Luck
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Heather7476
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CASEY!!! Calm down girl. You'll work yourself up even more.
Do what you can at your own pace. You don't want to set yourself back and have a big IBS attack.
This will all be over before you know it and you'll be able to handle it just fine. I can tell you're really strong even if your muscles may not be at the moment. 
Don't worry about writing to us and keeping up with posts. That should be the least of your worries. Try and make a list of realistic things to do/pack/clean and check them off as you do them. Then you'll see that you are getting somewhere.
You get to have your own house soon! That's so awesome and realize that packing sucks for everyone. It's unpacking and getting set up that's fun and rewarding.
((((Hug))) 
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Excellent vent, my dear!! This too shall pass, and we'll be cheering you on the whole way.
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Laura
Keep it simple!
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Y'all are sweethearts. 
I know everything will get done... I just get frustrated because I can't do everything myself! Adam told me over dinner, for the millionth time since last week, that it's not a big deal, but you know I'm going to keep trying & keep wearing myself out. I'm so stubborn and pigheaded sometimes. (Ok, all the time.)
Ah well. It'll all work out. The house is totally worth it.
Thanks again, guys!
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Gee, Casey
#107406 - 09/21/04 06:43 PM
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barbie
Reged: 04/22/04
Posts: 2435
Loc: Texas
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Hi Casey,
I'm so sorry you are having a tough time with this move. Moving is definitely not fun. Hey, let the big, strong, man help....nothing wrong with that!
Wish I could do something to help, but the most I can do is send you bunches & bunches of hugs. You'll make it through this, sweetie, and you will be so happy in that wonderful house you are moving to.  We will be with you every step of the way.
Hugs
Barbie
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Casey, dear:
As a fellow member of the "cruel inner critic" club, I know just how you feel (emotionally, anyway). You've gotta force yourself to cut yourself the emotional breaks to which you're entitled!
On a more strategic level, lists and calendars really help me feel less stressed. If it's written down, I'm able to get it off my mind.
Feel better!
Christine
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Christine
Those who can do; those who want it done better teach.
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#107434 - 09/21/04 08:58 PM
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MissS
Reged: 02/11/04
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Oh, Casey, you poor thing. It's not your fault that you aren't strong enough right now to do what you want to do. You're not being a wimp and you're not being old fashioned by having "the man" do most of the work. You're just being a person who has been very sick for a long time, and someone who cares about you wants to help you. (He just happens to be one of those men.)
I wish I could help you see that you don't need to be wearing yourself out, but I understand why you are.
It's not easy to have to have help. Whatever you do, don't forget to keep your little body built up as nutritionally as you possibly can. Take care of yourself the way you would tell us to take care of ourselves. You always offer such wonderful advice on these boards. Try to take care of you like you do others.
Terri
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Maybe we should have a virtual housewarming party for you once you've moved in - seems like you will have deserved it! Best thing about virtual parties is that you can eat whatever you want - so bring out the double chocolate fudge cake!!
Drinks are on me!
Catherine
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#107480 - 09/22/04 03:00 AM
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Linz
Reged: 09/01/03
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Loc: England
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Take it a LITTLE earier on yourself, hon! Moving is hard enough as it is without having been as ill as you have been. Remember - baby steps. One little thing at a time.
Sounds like you could do with a forklift truck! That WOULD be fun!
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