First take a deep breath. Second, know you are NOT alone. Third...
read as much as you can on the boards. And do as much as you can at your own pace.
4th try adding magnesium malate to your diet (best absorbed form)
5ht, do a search for "Shanna and poo". There are some fabulous suggestions in that thread.
Next, consider the IBS 100 Audio. You can get info on the Hypno board.
Consider tomato juice. It helps me a LOT.
As this is your 1st post...I don't know you at all. BUT, if you are serious about killing yourself...please get help! We care....
P.S. I've had IBS so bad the pain made me throw up. Heather has PASSED OUT from the pain. We ca help you...I'm glad you posted. You came to the right place.