Out of sorts, need help...
#84394 - 06/29/04 11:00 AM
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LauraSue
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Help, everybody. I'm SO out of sorts today. My "I DONT WANNA" inner kid is having a full out tantrum. I don't wanna do my exercises, go for a walk, take a shower, run my errand, finish my jewelry drawer or ANYTHING!!!!!!
I DONT WANNA AND YOU CANT MAKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it when this happens. I'm fighting with myself and it feels like I'm wrestling an alligator. And the only person getting hurt is me.
I keep trying all the motivational stuff, but nuttin's working. I just played 7 games of freecell in a row (won six of seven!). But I'm WASTING MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
I am THE world champion procrastinator. The rest of you are mere amateurs compared to me. I have no excuse. I feel okay physically. I have enough energy. I'm just rebelling against everything.
Jeez, how do I get off of this merry go round? I've been doing this to myself for 50 years. I WANT TO STOP!!!!!!
Oh, and the fact that Sunday was the one year anniversary of my last day of work when I got too sick to keep going has NOTHING to do with this. (It has EVERYTHING to do with this. I'm very upset. I hate being sick.)
Okay, I'll do my exercises. But I DONT WANNA.
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Your inner child is rebelling! You know, there's nothing wrong with letting her win now and again. How 'bout you do the exercise and one other thing on your list and call it a day? (I vote for the shower to be the other thing.) Your day won't have been a total waste, and you're giving yourself permission to feel sort of grumpy and sad as you recognize this anniversary.
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WOW... I could not have said it better then Christine!!
Now.... get up off the computer and do your exercises... then crawl thru the shower... you will feel so much better and you will be LIVING!! 
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I third that
#84408 - 06/29/04 11:18 AM
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atomic rose
Reged: 06/01/04
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Loc: Maine (IBS-A stable since July '05!)
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... and I couldn't have said it any better. Do those 2 things, and then let your inner child take over!
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I can definitely relate about the exercising, Laura Sue! Hopefully things turn out better, but definitely let that inner child take over every once in a while. 
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Oh my, LS
#84413 - 06/29/04 11:24 AM
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barbie
Reged: 04/22/04
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Loc: Texas
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Hey LS,
Come on....you need to snap out of this funk. Sometimes an anniversary can bring back a flood of memories and in your case this anniversary brought back bad memories reminding you about being sick.
You are one of the people on this board that always makes me feel good...your sense of humor is wonderful. Please, please, please, pretty please with sugar on it...don't lose that.
It sounds like you are feeling OK physically which I might add is something to be tickled pink about. You are just a little down on yourself. We all go through that at one time or another. Why do you think you have wasted your life? You certainly have helped a lot of people on these boards...just think about that.
Not long ago I was down on myself and I thought about a friend of mine that was in a motorcycle accident and at 40yrs old was partially paralyzed and has slurred speech. He is trying so hard to rehabilitate himself that he e-mails me when he is able to take a couple of steps...and he is so excited. When I think about him my problems seem so small. When I realize all the obstacles he has to overcome and he has such a good outlook, my stomache and "D" is nothing in comparison.
LS, come on.....let's see a smile....and keep on with that excercising....even if you dont wanna!!!
Barbie
PS: I am also waiting for that jewelry drawer to be finished!
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Really? That would be okay? But if I keep putting things off, I'll NEVER get anything done. As I said, this battle with myself has been going on for 50 years and I have no idea how to change it. It's a bad habit, like biting your nails or slouching. I read somewhere that the best way to change a bad habit is to replace it with a good habit, but that the change won't be permanent until you've practiced the new habit for 12 weeks and it's become second nature. But I have yet to come up with a new behavior that makes sense to replace the old one. I've tried meditating, praying, Freecell(!), bribing myself, cognitive therapy exercises, everything. Nothing works. Is there a Procrastinator's Anonymous meeting I could go to? I've even been working on this with my shrink. I'm sure it's some deep-seated childhood issue, but darned if I know what.
Okay, I HAVE DONE MY EXERCISES!!!! You think I should skip the walk and just take a shower?? I know, one of my tricks is flipping a coin (no lie). Heads I'll walk, tails I won't. TAILS!!!!! YAY!!!!!!
See, Barbie, I still have my sense of humor. I was famous in my office for using a coin toss as my "executive decision making" tool!!
Okay, I'm off to the shower. Then we'll see...
Thanks, everybody!! You're the bestest!!
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#84449 - 06/29/04 12:24 PM
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Bevvy
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LS, Cutie-Pie, Sweetie, you just rant all you want. Damnitalltohell, if anyone's entitled, it's you.
I haven't read anyone's responses, so I apologize if I'm repeating anyone here.
I don't know anything about fibro, so I'm certainly not qualified to give any advice. However, (here it comes anyway)....
I believe in listening to your body. It will tell you what it wants and doesn't want. Take, for example, my SFS. I knew it didn't want that Acacia, so I tried to trick it by taking Benefiber instead. It wasn't fooled. My body totally rejected that stuff, telling me it's fed up with me. I finally had no choice but to listen.
Girlfriend, I think you're being WAAAAAY too hard on yourself. I know you need exercise, I understand that, and I guess when you have fibro it's crucial. BUT -- there's always a "but" -- you also need a break. I think your body is telling you to take a damn break!
I hear ya, you're saying you feel okay physically, you have enough energy. I'm with ya. You wanna rebel against everything? Okay, GOFERIT! You just have a rebellion FEAST, Girlfriend -- knock yourself out.
And tomorrow you exercise.
Bevvy
P.S.: About that anniversary? I celebrated my third 2 months ago. It was the IBS that did it fo me, though. I would have returned to work MANY times had I not moved away. But you know something, LS? I like being retired. I worked for 42 years, straight (minus 1 year for school). That's just too damn long.
Honey, why not go out in your garden, lie in your hammock (of course you have one!), and fall asleep while reading a good book. Now tell me, what the hell is wrong with that?
"Freecell"? Not a clue.
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