Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Re:Update - another accident, a bit of a rant

I'm sitting here sipping peppermint tea while my tummy continues to cramp. Today was going to be my day. Hair, a few errands, get some chores done. Yesterday was at my daughter's. Going again tomorrow. Every other day now. 94 miles round trip. AM had a hair appointment for the works, cut, color, highlights. Nice, huh. Then I stopped at Costco. Bought too much as usual. I was going on to Target but I was starved and needed lunch. It was 2:30. Came home, went potty and there it was. I think I have lost all sensation in my rectum. Not the colon though! Too much sensation there. Another pair of panties in the trash. I don't dare take imodium. I will be blocked for days and the whole vicious cycle with start again. My mood is getting less positive.

I decided I will go see the colorectal surgeon. I can't go on like this with the poor sphincters and rectal prolapse (not a real back one, but still). One GI said manage it medically. One general surgeon said ditto. One GI said see the colorectal guy at USC (University of Southern California - Go Trojans, Go). Hmm, real guy school. Neither GI will actually do a proper referral. I have to make the appointment, get the records, etc. Plus I will probably have to get one of these GIs to do another colonoscopy as it has been almost 2 years. I wonder if my insurance will pay so soon after the last one. But, I can't do anything until my daughter is better. She is doing so well. Yesterday we went on a rather long walk. Too long to my way of thinking, but her doc says it's okay.

I did go back out to get disposable panties. First I went to the surgical supply and bought what they had. Then I decided to go to Rite Aid as it was only on the other side of the street. They had the Serentiy panties, which are much nicer. They run large. I bought medium and I usually were a size 7 panty. I also bought cheap panties at Costco. More baby wipes. And I bought too much food. I don't know why I do that. Well, I can bring half the fruit to my daughter. They have these big packages of boneless, skinless chicken breasts and two are individually packaged in freezer ready plastic. I also bought a couple of books, but when I'll get to read them I don't know. Something to look forward to.

You guys are the greatest. You know what it is like. Plus so many of us also have anxiety and depression also. I am so tired, but so geared up. If I take something, I won't want to cook dinner and I bought fish (tilapia). Sometimes I wish I could just pick up already cooked food, but I know I'll get sick. I get so tired of cooking. And we don't eat out much. Just isn't worth it. Plus decent restaurants are rather pricey.

Well, I think I've finished ranting. Thanks all for being here.

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