Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | The way I feel today....next year will be nothing....

I tried so hard to make yesterday as special as possible. Even though I haven't been feeling to great for a couple months off and on. After he left for work, I put the Valentine boxers and M&M's I got him in a pretty gift bag and placed it on our bed with some Valentine stuffed animals we already had. I went to work and he sent me a nice e-mail wishing me Happy Valentine's and included a photo of us....which was nice of him. We had planned on making pizza together and watching Survivor last night, so I went straight home from work to start getting things ready. Thinking he'd help make the pizza since he likes to do that. But we had gotten alot of snow so he needed to plow the driveway. I was a little hurt, but understood. I made the pizza by myself while he took care of the snow. I mentioned that only one girl got flowers at work. He said "Well, I thought about it, and then I guess I just thought too long and didn't. But I made you a card. So he handed me a cute little card he had made with a cheesy poem inside about wine coolers and "getting bare". I mentioned that a backrub would be nice later and he grinned. He helped with the dishes which I appreciated...he helps with the dishes every night. We watched Survivor. Then I took a shower and put something pretty on and crawled into bed thinking he'd hop in the shower and crawl into bed with me. He just layed on the bed and ignored me and continued watching TV! I layed there for 45 minutes waiting and thinking he'd offer a backrub, etc. But nothing....so I changed into something more comfortable and he could tell I was upset. I didn't say I was upset. I just cuddled up next to him after he put on an old long sleeve shirt and crawled into bed and he put his arm around me and we watched TV. This morning he said he was sorry that he disappointed me. And I told him I just didn't understand why things didn't work out last night. He just shrugged his shoulders and went to work. This coming from a man who one year sent me a rose a day for a week before Valentines Day and then had a nice bouquet for me on Valentine's Day. People I work with still talk about it. Now I get nothing?! I didn't want anything big or expensive, but some kind of loving gesture besides an e-mail would have been nice. I just feel stupid for trying so hard yesterday to make the day special. I shouldn't feel this way, but it hurts after 13 years!

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