I hurt for you, i really do. But the hard, cold, completely unfair truth is, this is probably for the best. You've driven yourself crazy with wanting a baby. YOU, my love, NEED to get healthy. Without that, you could never have been a great mother anyhow.
That being said, I still URGE you and Will to consider adoption if your hearts say you are parents and will be parents to living children. Please don't be offended...but you know, there's still a way, baby. I'd carry a baby for you if you wanted. Honest to God I would. You'd just ahve to make sure I'm taken care of:)
I'd love to surrogate. I've talked about it a million times. And yes, I could let that baby go.