Oh my gosh Stephie, Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. That you had to see him like that, it's terrible. I remember when my granpa had a heart attack in our living room one night. I was sleeping & my brother came & woke me up saying "Grandpa dying!". I was only 7 or so, but we waited at my bedroom window for the ambulance & after they left, we went out into the living room & saw all these wrappres & stuff all over the place. That in itself is bad enough, looking back now. I wish I could do something for you. Just remember to breathe. I'll be praying for you! {HUGS)