Gayla, thank you. You are so sweet to be thinking of me when your family is going through such a hard time.
Thankfully, I started back on my BP med several weeks ago. My doctor told me the same thing you did---that this was not the time for me to be stopping it. He is the one who encouraged me to see another doctor about the back pain. He said I must get my health issues resolved, and he stressed how important it is for me to get some sleep. Sleep deprivation is bad enough on anyone, but when you have BP, it can make matters worse. Sometimes it can bring on a manic or depressive state.
I am very down today---after thinking about my doctor's appt. My husband didn't say much at all to me last night about it and i needed to talk about it. I am scared to death that I have something that will be disabling. I had hoped this back pain was temporary, but now I'm beginning to wonder. I kept thinking it was just a pulled muscle and I needed to give it time. But if the doctor saw something unusual on the X-ray, now I'm wondering .....
Why this ever go away? I don't want to live my life in pain. I told myself last night before bedtime that if I have to take pain medication every day, then so be it. And then I took it, and it didn't work.
I'm sorry, but I need to vent. Guess what? I wanted a good cry---now I'm getting it. The tears are flowing and they won't stop.
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