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I'm so glad someone asked this question about IBS and depression...'cause that's what I was logging on to do, actually.

For quite a while I've been feeling "off" - I have no desire to do much of anything, work (which always energized me, to the point that I would work CRAZY hours w/o it feeling like work at all) doesn't get me motivated anymore which scares me. I'm just pretty apathetic and content to come home each night and sit in front of the TV. And do the same on weekends. That NEVER used to be me. I'm a Believer (Christian) and my spiritual life isn't so fabulous either - I've let that slip MAJORLY too...

I do know that I'm hitting a major transition point at my work (a nonprofit which I've LOVED working at for the last 5 years)...my boss is leaving, my current position is being done away with & so I'm being offered another position in the organization that I'm not sure I want. I'm also don't have clear DIRECTION either, so even looking for another job is a little overwhelming 'cause I'm not certain of what I want. I'm only 27...so I've heard this is typical "quarter life crisis" mode. But I still HATE it.

Put the work stuff, which really was a ton of my life, on top of my IBS/health stuff, the fact that I'm spiritually not as "in tune" as I should be, all of the big life questions i'm dealing with...I guess a little depression wouldn't be so surprising in hindsight. Oh yeah. and I believe I'm an emetophobe (fear of vomiting) which has led to no eating & weight loss of 15 pounds...I'm sort of a mess right now!! ;(

I've never pictured myself going through depression. And I'm not totally clear I know for sure what to look for exactly.

I just had a few conversations with potential therapists over the last few days. I want to be proactive and get on top of all this stuff before I become completely unraveled. I'm stronger than that...but it's still really hard to see myself this way.

Thanks for bringing up this discussion...if anyone has anything to share/offer, I'd love to hear from ya. But otherwise, this was cathartic in and of itself - getting it out there in the open, ya know?

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East Palo Alto, CA (San Francisco Bay Area/Silicon Valley)

IBS-C, pain, nausea

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