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ok guys, I really need help. Please don't think I'm whining, I just really need some support because I think I'm going to end up slipping back into eating disorder territory.

I had an eating disorder but got it corrected pretty quickly, I was about 127lbs at my lowest weight (180 pre-ED). The weight has been slowly creeping back on and I know I've posted about this before but I've hit a real low tonight and really could use some help.

I don't want to start restricting my foods because I'll either restrict too much and get sick again, or I'll restrict just that amount that actually makes you gain. But when I try and eat enough I must be eating too much because I'm gaining.

I never used to work out at all and now I'm trying to work-out like crazy...and it's been over a month and it's not doing anything. Each week I'm increasing what I'm doing because I was out of shape so it's taking time, but it still doesn't seem to be doing anything.

So, I'd like to give you guys a breakdown of my day and see if anyone can make any suggestions because I can't handle this anymore. My bf says he'll leave me if I stop eating again but if I can't get the pounds to start going down again I don't know what I'll do. part of me knows how stupid this is but the dumb part of me is overriding the smart part

So, here's what I ate today (I don't follow the IBS diet becasue as it turns out it doesn't look like I have IBS so that's why you'll see some "bad" foods on it):
-Quaker 1/3 less sugar instant oatmeal
-2/3 banana
-chicken breast w/ mayo (not a lot of mayo)
-green beans, yellow beans and carrots
-small scoop of mashed potatoes
-mixed berry smoothie containing blackberries, blueberries, raspberries and strawberries as well as orange juice and scoop of frozen yogurt
-about 200mL of gatorade

As for working out I did 45min free weights/resistance bands with some jumping jacks in between sets and then some ab work on a resistance ball. Then I went for a 45 minute power walk.

So, how does that sound? I think maybe one of my problems is my eating schedule, my sleep schedule is all screwed up for various reasons, so I don't normally get up till noon and eat breakfast until 1:00pm, so I'm often eating my last thing of the day around midnight. Could that be the reason I can't seem to shed a pound?

Any insights/encouragement would be great. Just had a huge fight with bf about it and am so sad

Thanks,
Kelly

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