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I haven't really been good.

I haven't been doing horribly, but I'm eating like crazy and not always the best choices, either. The thing is, a couple days ago I started feeling like I need to eat more. Not hunger, exactly, but just a general feeling that I need more calories - I know the feeling well from when I was eating WAY too little. Is it possible that my metabolism is actually speeding up a bit? I don't even know if that's possible... I've had a nonexistent metabolism my entire life.

I'm continuing to exercise every day, even if it's just a small walk and some housework, like yesterday.

I weighed in this morning and I'm still holding steady at 127. I had kind of a bummer of a day yesterday, though. I dug out all my warm-weather clothes and cleaned out my closet... I had to pack away all my size 1, 3, and 5 pants, to give to the thrift store, and my 7's and 9's are back to fitting me - some of them tightly. I'm not happy about this.

I know I'm healthier now, but I really miss being a 3-5... and I know I can't be that small without starving myself, it's just not in my genetics, but it's still kind of upsetting me. Knowing how heavy I USED to be makes me feel even more ridiculous for being upset, but I really was so happy being thin and proportionate for my height. Now I'm CHUBBY again. How on earth do you learn to love your body like that?

Sorry for ranting... some days I feel good about myself, some days I really just don't.

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